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Oh, I've been bad. I got stressed b/c hubby had kidney stone surgery on Thursday which took 2 hours, it was bigger and stuck and had been lodged for over 3 weeks. Dr thought it would come out on it's own but they had to go in and lucky thing they did b/c there was blood and pus stuck behind the stone which could have gotten infected. Fortunately, he got it out but that left a host of other possible problems like blood clotting, urethra collapsing and possible infections. He had a lot of vicodin and antibiotices which caused constipation and he was uncomfortable for a long while.
In the meantime, I was stressing and just trying to get him to eat his favorite things so of course I ended up eating a bag of chips, ice cream and pasta. Dear me, I'm back up to 169 today. Oh well, at least he is feeling better today and there was less blood in his urine.
Sorry to talk about such gross things, just kind of wanted to get things out (ha ha) and probably feel safest venting here. Don't have brothers or sisters and parents both deceased. I'm an orphan (again--I was adopted). Anyhoo, things are better and I'll probably hop back on the bandwagon on SBD tomorrow. Will try to get back on Phase 1 to start over.
I did get a chance to talk to some of my friends, but you know how it is when they're all skinny, they don't understand how stress makes you eat. And even if they do, they don't gain weight. Why do I have such skinny friends? Do they hang around me cuz' I'm fat? Am I looking at this in a bad way? Probably, guess I can't help it when feeling down. Sorry again for venting.
Sigh. Well, I'll probably feel better tomorrow, cuz the "sun'll come up Tomorrow... blah blah blah...." I think I'm going crazy. Just kidding.
Take care all, stay healthy!!!
Love,
Yuko Shibata
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169.0 lb
Lost so far: 2.0 lb.
Still to go: 46.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 4.0 lb a week
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