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Baby done a bad, bad thing
It's 4.20 am, and I'm still up!! Just got done watchign a movie, and earlier while watching the movie, I did a number of unnecessary evils that I feel I should confess and come clean.
Even though it was around midnight or so, instead of going to bed, I decided to watch a movie, and thought I'd have a rice cake to keep me company. Those were already two bad ideas. Next, instead of eating just one, I brought the whole bag out of the kitchen and onto my sofa---so, instead of stopping at one, I had 5!! Total mindless eating--I wasn't hungry, I wasn't craving them, I didn't need them--so why did I keep going? I thought me and my body were sympatico now--we were at an agreement on not doing unneccary damages, and yet, I am so quick to undo the good!! Oh! and to add more to this, I went and brought out the remaining wasabi peas from my dinner snack earlier in the evening--and finished the box too (that was nearly 4 serving!).
So, that's 9 points altogether that I'll need to exclude from my meal tomorrow. On top of that, both of these snack choices were probably pretty salty--so I shouldn' be surprised to see a weight gain tomorrow!! So there's the end of my good downward decline of weight--at least temporarily until I undo this little detour.
The bigger question is, why did I feel compelled to do this especially when I was on a good roll and doing well, and feeling good over the last two days? Is this my self-sabotage at work? Dunno. Regardless, I'll have to be on high alert over the next few days to see that I don't succumb to any other self-mutilating behaviours (ok, that's a little harsh I know, but if unnecessary food is poison, then feeding oneself that poison can only be considered self-mutilation, no? !) Ok, I know..a tad dramatic--only 4.30 am can inspire such strong, dramatic statements!! On that note, off to bed now...tomorrow (nay, today) is another day!!
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