I just realized something today. I am the one that is in charge of the way my family eats, as well as myself! I'm not sure how I feel about it! lol Whenever I tell my husband that I need to start eating better, he always tells me that whatever I want to buy for groceries and prepare for meals is completely okay with him. He's game. I have also made a conscious decision to raise my 11 month old daughter as healthy as possible. I'm reading Dr. Sear's book "The healthiest kid in the neighborhood". I know that obesity is on an overwhelming rise and I don't want her to suffer the way I have. I'm more than willing to have the desire to provide healthy food for my family. They are willing, with ease! Why can't I be that way? Why do I have such a hard time accepting the healthy eating? Why do I struggle with it so much, even though I know it's the best thing I can do for myself? After lunch, almost every day, I can count on a craving for an iced mocha or chocolate of some sort. In the mornings, before work, I can usually expect a craving for a latte. And...80% of the time I give in. I view it as a treat or a reward for something. I somehow justify that it's okay "this one last time". Only thing is, there's never a "last time". Why do I have such a hard time with self discipline? I need to find out these answers, I suppose. Maybe it will make my weight loss journey more powerful. There has got to be a phsycological answer for this!
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