JennBuck61's Journal, 06 May 2015

Happy Hump Day! I worked late last night reaching out to some of our hot prospects and now hoping it will pan out with some contracts for the company! It's a new and interesting worklife that I lead right now. No set hours and the ability to balance my personal and professional commitments. The owner is a young man in his 30s and he does not believe in the traditional 9-5, 3 weeks vacation, # of sick days, kind of arrangement. His approach is to work hard, bring in the results, take vacation whenever you want for as many times as you want per year around peak periods of needs, time off when you are sick, work whenever you want (day or night whatever suits you) as long as you deliver on time, on budget and on quality. The agreed pay will still be the same and if we supersede our plans, we all benefit by increased $. We had a talk about that this week and I know that this way will work better for me in this phase of my life. It's pretty cool and very different - I can't complain either because I am making more than my high-flying corporate job with the largest food manufacturer in the world - because he hand-picked me and asked me what it would take for me to work with him (not just the money but the working conditions). I am feeling very valued today and it makes me work harder at what I do - that's just my ish! It has never been about the money for me or I could have gone in a completely different direction paved with cash. It's more about making a contribution, feeling valued and seeing the impact of your work! I figured that out when I was in my early 20s and walked away from a lucrative job as a personnel consultant - I was not willing to trade away my integrity for the almighty dollar. I literally walked away from that company one day - just walked away from the building after I observed something I could not, would not tolerate! I left them with my last pay cheque and everything that I had in my desk. I phoned in "I quit" and burned that bridge. You are told you shouldn't do that ... but I had to. I didn't ever want to walk back to that building. The whole experience left me with a bad taste in my mouth and caused me to assess what my personal currency was. I figured out it wasn't money! I need money to live and support my family but I won't sell my soul for it! I learned that lesson fairly early. I have been blessed because that experience allowed me to make choices with my career that were thoughtful and the money eventually came with it. I really hope my girls figure out their currency in life very early, so that they will draw a line in the sand with regards to their personal boundaries. Jeez ... I don't know where all that came from. I was going to write about my WOE but then that flowed out instead. I guess it needed to be freed from my subconscious!

So, I had another discovery about my eating. On Monday I advertently ended up eating well below my RDI. On Tuesday, I went out to lunch and had a lunch salad with about 2 ounces of grilled chicken. Had I been at home I would have been something much more substantial such as a loaded omelet or some lamb. What I found is that after eating a meal that was mostly salad and less protein (especially following a low RDI day before) was that I was starving!!! This has not happened to me in such a long time that it made me stop to consider why I felt like I could eat everything in sight! It's the carbs in that meal. Even though it was relatively low carb it is still a lot more carbs than I would have in my lunch. It underlines the fact that my body needs proteins and fats to keep it satiated and happy. If it doesn't get that, it goes on a hunger craving rampage! Hence, there I was yesterday in the evening having nuts, followed by a lot of roasted chicken to quell the hunger. That has not happened to me in a while so it literally caught me off-guard. It would have been better to have a salad with more protein added - 2 ounces is not quite enough for what my body needs now (especially coming off a low RDI day). That was a learning! Anyway, I wanted to journal it so I could go back and remind myself about these things ... I am sure I will face this again but next time, I need to plan accordingly. Have a great day all ... and be golden!

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863 kcal

Fat: 64.32g | Prot: 34.48g | Carb: 35.83g.   Breakfast: Maxwell House Original Roast, Beatrice Whipping Cream (35%), Nutiva Organic Extra Virgin Coconut Oil, Sugar Twin Liquid Calorie Free Sweeter. Lunch: Nature's Way Liquid Coconut Premium Oil, Dole Colourful Coleslaw, Cream Cheese, Driscoll's Blackberries, Gay Lea Nordica 4% cottage Cheese. Snacks/Other: Twinings English Breakfast Tea, Whipping Cream, Stash Chai Spice Black Tea. more...