skinnyin90's Journal

Today is the first day of the challenge, and I've committed to writing here every day about my process.

Today it seems like I've been eating alot, but then I realize I've pigged out on some roasted chicken... god I love that stuff. But Althea, one of my mentors tells me, whatever you love you're addicted to, and I feel so bloated now I know it can't be good. Still, I'm drinking my water and writing in my journal, plus keeping a food diary. All this will help me keep my eating under control for the duration of the challenge and beyond. Because as we all know, it's not just about a specific time period, but about changing a lifetime of habits and becoming something else, someone else who has a completely different relationship with food.

xxoo,
Barb

Resisting....

Exercising, going to the gym, walking the dog, cleaning the house, doing the laundry.....

not resisting... eating healthy. That's good. I guess I can drink some water. I don't mind that.

After that, I'll tackle the laundry, then I'll walk the dog!

Today, day 4 of the 42 day challenge where I am making permanent changes in my diet and lifestyle, and achieving new levels of personal power and self-control.

This is my new destination, changed from losing 30 pounds and achieving a full shamanic healing retreat in Sedona in August 2011.

Losing 30 pounds is not that daunting to me. I've done it before, and I know what it requires... cutting way down on what I'm eating and increasing my exercise level accordingly. What is daunting is keeping it off. What is daunting is taking responsibility for a permanent lifestyle change, that doesn't include emotional eating sometime in the future and gaining the weight back, and does include continuing to lose another 30 pounds after the first thirty, which is my true goal.

Juli, my new teacher, along with my teacher of 15 years, Jimmy Hyman, continue to show me the way.

I'm doing Julie Gunn's 42 day miracle program and have plenty of support to stay focused on my goals.

I'll make use of the tools of my shaman ex-husband as well.