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27 May 2012

A weight loss of 0.4kg puts me right on schedule! So I've still got 0.3kg "in the bank", so to speak. Yesterday was such an exhausting day. I closed the bad at 2.30am and had a drink with my workmates after. Well, 4 drinks. So I was a bit pissed after. So there were some empty calories there that I didn't write up, but I guess it balanced with all the running around I did at work, so I ended up weighing less today. Score!

Today I'm gonna revise for my last exam at home. It will be a bit of a challenge. I always find it hard not to eat at home, but I guess I need to face my demons anyway, so... good luck me :)

Weigh-in: 160.3 lb

lost so far: 3.7 lb

still to go: 30.2 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

add comment losing 6.2 lb a week

26 May 2012

I am surprised at this. I was fully expecting to weigh more than I did yesterday or at least for my weight to have stayed the same. I was really ridiculously hungry yesterday evening, so I actually had FOUR slices of bread after my dinner. Pretty bad, I know. This just goes to show how fickle using scales as a measure of weight loss in small periods of time is... Oh well, it's a smaller number on a scale, so I'll take it. So, a 0.7 kg "weight loss" is well above my 0.4kg per day goal and I currently have 0.3kg spare (for days when I'm not gonna lose as much).

edit: ah yes, I forgot to mention what my plan for today was. Basically I'm going to be at work from 11.30am in the morning till 2am at night, with only a 1.5 hour break between jobs. So I'm going to try to just have liquids. Tea, coffee, diet drinks. Hoping for a -0.4kg tomorrow so I would still be on schedule...

Weigh-in: 161.2 lb

lost so far: 2.9 lb

still to go: 31.1 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

add comment losing 10.8 lb a week

25 May 2012

Oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit.

Last year, I took part in this weight loss study. Basically they were testing for change in perception of surroundings after weight loss or something like that. I was 69kg then and I was in a good place mentally, so I thought I was gonna lose weight. I did at first. I think I was 63kg at some point. Fast forward a year and due to the stress and other things, I'm actually 5kg heavier than then!.

Anyway, the guy from the test got in contact yesterday and I'm due to have a retest in exactly 3 weeks from today! I couldn't really refuse, so... now I'm in a panic. The annoying thing is that the guy doing the test is ridiculously attractive, so it makes it even worse if I show up not having lost any weight...

This is dire... but all I can do is try to lose as much weight as possible before then. Eat as little as possible, exercise like crazy and hopefully get down to at least 65 by June 15. That's a very big challenge, but given the choice between suffering for 3 weeks and the extreme embarrassment I'd have to endure if I showed up weighing more than I did last year... I think I'll take the suffering.

Right, so current goal is to get to 65kg in 3 weeks. That's losing 8.8kg total, approximately 3kg per week and 0.4kg per day. I think if I try really really hard, it's achievable.

I'm going to buy a new gym membership as soon as I can, most likely Wednesday or Thursday next week. As for food, my plan is to only have diet drinks, tea, coffee and water during the day and eat only once in the evening. And eat something healthy and low cal, like soup. If I get absolutely famished during the day, I can have some low fat yogurt or fruit. Fruit juice has a lot of calories, so I should probably avoid that for now.

Good luck to me... I'm gonna need it!

Weigh-in: 162.7 lb

lost so far: 1.3 lb

still to go: 32.6 lb

Diet followed 100%

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24 May 2012

I had pizza last night with my bf. I shouldn't have... but I'm going to consider it my goodbye to bad eating habits meal. No more pizza from now on! Stepping on the scale this morning it appears I weigh exactly the same as I did yesterday afternoon. Which is alright I guess, at least it's not higher than my starting weight...

Anyway, exam today. I do not feel ready for it... gonna do some last minute revision and just hope for the best. I only need 40% to pass, so I'm literally just hoping to get that somehow. The rest of my exams have gone pretty well, so I should end up with a 2:1 average.

As for food... I plan to eat as little as possible and make a note here of everything I do eat. Maybe I should join a challenge... I'm sure there's one for something like this...

edit: exam done! It was... okay actually. It could have been a lot harder. It's so hot outside though. I took my tights off which made it a bit better, but I was then confronted with the thing I hate the most about being chubby... thighs rubbing together >.< I hate it so much. You can't see it because I'm wearing a skirt, but I can feel it. And since it's hot and humid, that makes it even worse. Ugh. Oh well, I'll just think of it as more motivation to not break my diet :)

Today, all I've had is a multivitamin, a bottle of coke zero and bottle of diet cherry coke. I'm not trying to fast or anything, it's literally the heat, taking my appetite away. I'll probably have something to eat in the evening.

edit2: apparently there IS a challenge for putting everything and anything you eat on your food diary, but it is already in progress and not accepting new members. Boo hoo. Well then I guess I have to do it on my own. Write. Down. Everything! No hiding whatsoever. I should avoid eating the things I don't know the calorie content of, but if I can't help it, I'll just have to estimate, but it still has to be here :)

Weigh-in: 164.0 lb

lost so far: 0 lb

still to go: 34.0 lb

Diet followed N/A

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23 May 2012

I'm so tired of this. This constant struggle with food and weight. I need to end this, because it is ruining my life. I simply can not be happy being this weight and I will go to all means necessary to reach my goal weight... My initial goal weight will be 59 kg... by the time I'm going back home to see my parents next. They're extremely fit and I'm sure they'd be happy with me being a normal weight... even thin by some standards.

My goal is to use any means necessary to get to 50-55kg eventually. And then take up dancing or martial arts or something fun to maintain my weight.

So for now, I have just under 10 weeks to lose 15.4kg. For simplicity, I'll say it's 9 weeks. That's 1.7kg per week... 0.25kg per day.

From this moment on... the following food restrictions will be put in place:
NO chocolate
NO bread (though small sandwiches allowed if shop bought and preferably brown bread)
NO deep-fried food ESPECIALLY chips
NO sweets

And I'll try to update my diary regularly.

Right now I have to get back to revising. Exam tomorrow. I'm so not prepared... but NO COMFORT EATING GOD DAMN IT!

edit: It's summer now. I want to lose weight so I'd be more comfortable in the heat. It's a fact that fat people have more fat to carry around, hence they're much hotter in the summer and sweat more and are generally more uncomfortable. I don't want that. I want my thighs not to touch when I walk. I don't want my tummy to roll when I sit and I don't want to be able to grab a handful of fat from my tummy. It's disgusting. I also want my arms to be a bit thinner, so I'd look better in sleeveless things. There are so many reasons why I should lose weight. The only plus on the food's side is that it tastes nice. But the fact is, there are so many things in life that are BETTER than food... Sacrificing tasty food is nothing compared to all there is to gain by doing so.

Weigh-in: 164.0 lb

lost so far: 0 lb

still to go: 34.0 lb

Diet followed N/A

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