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19 May 2015
Found this and find it quite interesting. It is a bit long, but worth it.
Fat Head Documentary
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19 May 2015
Why fight?
That is a question that can be difficult to answer. We all have our reasons for starting this battle. For some of us it is simply wanting to finally be that ten pounds less. I won't speak for others, I will only speak for me. I am fighting this battle, because I wish to live a bit longer. I joke that I refuse to say I am old until I reach 100, fully intending to reach 100 years old. There are some scary statistics working against me.
I have severe mental illness and those in that category die an average twenty to thirty-two years sooner than the average population from
preventable
diseases. A lot of that comes down to side effects from medications. I have meds that drive up the wrong cholesterol numbers, hinder my body's ability to respond to insulin driving up weight and blood sugar, increase my chances of developing diabetes, damage my thyroid, and several other things.
I've heard people say, "Eat right and exercise and you can get off the medication." Well, that may work for some things, but so far schizophrenia has failed to respond to positive thinking, affirmations, platitudes, or diet and exercise. Eating right and exercise does play an important part in my mental makeup as it impacts my mood and faculties if I am deficient in some area sending off a cascade of symptoms that way.
I want to be healthy. Yeah, part of me wants to be skinny for a day or two to see what that's like, but mostly I just want to be healthy. I don't want to wake up every morning and wonder if my lungs are going to make it through that day without an asthma attack. I don't want to worry if I'm going to stop breathing during the middle of the night due to sleep apnea and pass due to that.
My greatest goal is something I am frequently told is nothing more than a setting on a washing machine: normalcy. What I have now, doesn't feel like it is what it should be. It feels too much like a struggle. I want to be able to exist without fighting for every moment of peace to the point I can't recognize the peace when it's there. I just want to be.
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18 May 2015
Calories are up again, if I was still doing LCHF wouldn't be a big deal, but I'm not. They're not "OMG, did you just eat the whole cow?" high, but up there. I'm sick with an upper respiratory infection making exercise problematic right now. So, my big plans to kick into some high gear on the Pump program and get back into Rockin' Body (simply cuz I love that program), have faltered due to breathing concerns. The thing that threw me off today was the fact I didn't get out of bed until after noon, and that was only because my CSS knocked on my door.
What do I really want to be doing? Going for a walk right now as it is absolutely gorgeous and we have
days
of storms forecasted ahead. I have been passing time watching some of my favorite older movies such as "Repossessed," "Police Academy," "Wrongfully Accused" (on the list for tonight), and "Hot Shots." The old fashioned spoof comedies when they spoofed other things without needing it to all be sexual innuendo.
Mental Front: The laughter is helping. I have not attempted to harm myself, but the thoughts come. In the few hours I have been awake today, they have not been that present.
Other Aspects of Wellness: Just mildewing to keep from molding. I'll focus on these when I can get the mental/physical under better wraps.
Live long and prosper.
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17 May 2015
Surprised? Nope. It's on par with the last time I was on this medication. I'm also getting sick with a respiratory illness. I'm hoping to still turn the corner with it soon on the illness and the weight.
Weigh-in:
287.2 lb
lost so far:
0 lb
still to go:
130.2 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
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gaining 3.4 lb a week
16 May 2015
I have eaten thousands of calories today, don't know how much, not gonna care. It was a special day with friends. I enjoyed myself with the cookout and had way too many carbs (lots of bread), and had doughnuts for breakfast, so, yeah, not my stellar day, but I'm not worried about it. The reason is because I cannot expect every day of my life going forward to be pitch perfect with no freedom to just cut loose from time to time. I'm not making it an every day thing. I'm hungry now, due to the clozapine, which is annoying, but I'm just going to have to learn to live with the feeling of being hungry all the time. I know my weight is going to be up tomorrow, and I don't really care. Things aren't moving out in a timely fashion so it'll be up for the reason along with the calorie stuff, so, yeah. Oh, well. Tomorrow, I will get back on point with the 5/2/1.5/3/5 stuff. Planning menu tonight. I may need to walk up to the store to get some yogurt here in a little bit to make it through the week.
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