I have always struggled with my weight, or at least I thought I did. I felt fat when my weight went over 9 stone, and for most of my teens and 20's I dieted to try and get down to 8 stone.

After my 3rd child, becoming hypothyroid and suffering depression my weight rocketed to over 14 stone. I then gave up smoking and put on even more and now at 36 years old I weigh 16 stone 7lbs, which at only 5ft 1" is morbidly obese and TWICE the size I used to be!

It is awful. being fat is hard. Not only is it embarrassing and ugly, i have aches and pains like an 80 year old, I run out of breath just going up the stairs and I struggle to lift up my 3 year old son. I fear for my life if im completely honest, yet I have started to smoke again because lets face it, heart disease is just as likely to kill me as cancer.

But now I am trying my hardest to get the weight off. I have a goal of 14st 2lbs by Christmas..And then a series of goals for the following year. If only I could get back down to 9 stone again...I don't know why I ever thought that was fat!

My profile pic was taken on my 36th Birthday, im the short fat blonde!