MissBehavior's Journal

help! I'm at work and about to get my afternoon coffee (yes, I am still drinking caffeine; my approach is the SBD, modified!) and though I ate a hearty lunch of lentil soup and mixed greens salad with chicken and goat cheese, I'm getting the munchies!

I used to always get a single-serve packet of the most amazing granola I've ever tasted. I haven't touched any "bad carbs" likes this in my three days on the wagon...

Ah!

Wow...Day II and I'm feelin pretty strong.

As I planned, I *did* in fact start on Wednesday 1/2, my first day back at work in 2008.

I've been adding fresh lemon juice to my water (I've always sipped at least 64 ounces of water from Nalgenes throughout the day, but I find the citrus has an energizing/diuretic effect.)

I've followed SBD Phase I, with the addition of a peeled half of a grapefruit (more fiber this way) each morning with my lowfat Friendship cottage cheese and hardboiled eggwhites (plus 3/4 of a yolk for healthy fat). I've eaten a few too many nuts (almonds, pecans), but other than that....no gorging!

No alcohol yet, but I'm a lush so that won't stick long. But that's OK. Drinking actually takes the place of eating for me. Same with coffee; had one skim latter pre-workout yesterday, but none today.

As has become my habit for the past 6 years (wow): a 12 ounce mug of green tea, steeped for about 30 minutes. Not sure if 30 minutes = craaazy cachetins, or if they max out around 15 minutes (?), but still. I love bitter tastes. I guess that's my one saving grace: arugula, kale, swiss chard, and other bitterish, leafy greens--not to mention oversteeped tea and--actually tastes good to me.

GYM two days in a row, hardcore for a minimum of 60 minutes. Today I did a nautilus weight circuit. It's good to be back in the social gym environment (I see a ton of acquaintances at my gym, and I had stopped going).

BEST PART: Already feel slimmer, more energetic! WOOT!

yikes.

OK, so *tomorrow* (Jan 2) I start LIVING HEALTHY. It's been a rough past few days. Seriously, my cravings are out of control. Chocolate pretzels for breakfast! Two bowls of granola and milk as a "snack"! And tonight, after subsisting on tea all day, I made chicken Parmesan...from scratch, with whole wheat linguine and freshly roasted tomatoes and basil and pine nuts (reputedly an appetite killer, but what does it matter in a situation like this!) galore!.....sounds decent right? Well the plate probably could have served three.

So now i'm stuffed and angry.

Still, I'm not too concerned, because history proves that I can lose (and gain) pretty fast. It's just a matter of willpower. It's painful. Emotionally zapping. I dread the restrictions. I hate deprivation. The first feat is getting over that three-day hump and starting to get in the zone. I've done South Beach before and it was insanely successful--but the first two weeks were really rough.

I think I'll start with the Master Cleanse to start fresh for the new year... anyone else doing it this week?

Fasted for most of the day, then whipped up a healthy, modest dinner. Embarking on a pseudo detox regimen, including Nature's Secret 30-day Multi-Herb + Multi-Fiber tablets and lots of tea (fasting, green, herbal), hot lemon water, soups, and veggies and protein. Placed an order for Renew-Life Multi-Greens Liquid and Agar powder, too.

Surprisingly, I'm not that hungry after yesterday. Didn't go snowboarding as I'd hoped, so tomorrow will be a rigorous day either on the mountain or in the gym.