Hayala's Journal

need to go to the gym
need to go to the gym
need to go to the gym
need to go to the gym
need to go to the gym
need to go to the gym
need to go to the gym

Yesterday was a junk fest, lunch out with the family and yet another buffet, it's hard dieting when no one else is...
I opted for soup, appetizers and dessert rather than a main dish, it just seemed like a lesser evil (you'd agree if you'd seen the sauced up main dishes), it was a near save until the evening. I was feeling down and fell into my old habit of comforting myself with candy, chocolate, potato chips, buttered popcorn etc... but it wasn't as comforting as it used to be, and I didn't lose control the way I used to, perhaps something has finally changed in my brain? I didn't cry myself to sleep in a fit of guilt and self-loathing and I woke up this morning feeling ok, I even did some abs and a light total body workout with weights. I feel confident that I can compensate yesterdays excess with some restrictions today and tomorrow. yay me!

I came across this "PMS prayer" on allpoetry.com. I think she should've added a few lines on not letting us succumb to CRAVINGS, like the ones I woke up with this morning...and I really don't feel like going to the gym... :( it's going to feel like a very long day...

Yesterday was a junk food festival and I thought for sure that I would be in huge calorie excess, but not really! I mean it's heavy in the fats but not as dramatic as I had expected. When I come to think of it, though the quality of my lunch yesterday was very high calorie I was pretty reasonable with portions, especially considering that it was an open buffet and I hadn't had any Chinese food in months. I even had melon and kiwi instead of fried bananas for dessert. Yay me! ...I did however skip dinner and replace it with reese's cups, ice cream, nuts, pringles...all the yummy excesses.

My allergies have had me feeling sick and weak for the past month, I'm exhausted and it's hard to stay away from my comfort foods, to top it off my chest congestion is making it hard to go to the gym. I wish the weather would just stop changing and jump into full blown summer already!