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WHAT THE HECK?! What am I waiting for? To weigh 198 again? Why do I have such a problem being inconsistent in life! With exercise! With healthy food! Why can't I do it right?! I try so hard and do awesome, but then cave and give up all over again. I'm not getting any younger. When am I going to feel confident? Attractive? Happy with myself?
Right now all of my clothes are getting tight again. My arms are like jello. Everytime I think about starting over, I think about the delicious homemade tacos that I cannot resist eating 4 or more of, and how there's no way I can NOT eat them for our lovely Christmas dinner! LOL!
So much anxiety! Why does trying to control food give me so much anxiety? I had this same anxiety when I was like 20 years old and wanted to quit smoking but obviously wasn't ready. But when I was ready, the anxiety wasn't really there. When will it come to me? The day when I make a commitment to myself for the better and don't let myself down anymore? :(
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188.0 lb
Lost so far: 10.0 lb.
Still to go: 38.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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steady weight
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