bleueyes1974's Journal, 14 October 2023

I’m sorry. It happens to many of us. Possibly self sabotage. I find I slow down when I succeed because of fear. Fear of what is the part I need to figure out. You may want to attempt a less drastic change to your diet to see if that helps your ability to sustain. Good luck finding your balance. 💜 

So sorry Bleueyes1974 just keep trying and one day the light bulb will turn on and you will love what you see and that will motivate you to keep going.  

It's extremely hard to change behaviors around food. If this is a repeated pattern, you may need to ask yourself if you're on the right diet for you. Despite claims from one side of the diet wars or the other, all diets effectively work on restriction. The trick is to find what feels least restrictive to you. (I'm paraphrasing Layne Norton here.) If you put me on keto, I'd cheat left and right, and I lasted only a week on IF. What I'm doing (pescetarian) feels easy to me, but a lot of people would find it miserable. Sometimes you have to step back and ask yourself if you're failing the diet, or if the diet is failing you  

Food is very tempting. I do best when I am not around things that tempt me.  

We all do it ..it's an unfortunate side of changing your habits. Try to learn from the times you crave foods that aren't in your new WOE. Sometimes if I crave chocolate, I'll have a protein. It's works most of time. Just keep moving forward! You can do this!!👍 

I am guessing the food you “cheat” with is what we know as junk food!! Such a vast selection of ultra processed and unhealthy foods… made to crave! It was a day of reckoning, for me, when I had to decide if bad food choices were worth the damage I was doing to my body. My bones stopped growing decades ago, they were not made to carry this extra weight! I put it on, i need to take it off! I started a food plan that (for now) works. Found the FatSecret app, and more importantly found a community of very supportive people! Find your “WHY” do you want it to work this time?…and keep remembering the why! 

Many times unhealthy food cravings are coming from our gut biome. You can change your gut biome by cutting out unhealthy foods, and then the gut biome changes over, and the cravings are soooo much easier. Occasionally, I get cravings for an orange or chicken leg. Where it used to be for soda, pizza, crackers, chips, etc. 

I agree with writingwyo. I had been on WW for years and always lost but their new program allowed me to eat way more calories than I should so I am stalled for a year now. I'm going to try something different now (counting calories, heart healthy foods) and see if that works.  

Often when we are succeeding at weight loss, there is the idea that we can have a “reward” and then continue on the journey. The problem with that is that often the reward is food. Sugar, fat, processed foods. These trigger cravings for more and more. I learned nearly 40 years ago that it is not uncommon for molestation victims (yes, I am one) to try and keep their bodies undesirable as a subconscious method of not becoming a victim again. Whether it is true or not it resonated. I wasn’t really overweight and i was in therapy at the time for the abuse and i am a binge eater. BINGE. 1/2 gallon ice cream in one day, the really huge bags of peanut M$M’s, potatoe chips with an entire box of cream cheese made into dip. Always when alone and no one to see. It has taken me nearly 40 years to understand that not feeding my body led to immobility, illness, exhaustion and refusing to acknowledge it was caused by food. Ive spent many years eating healthy and then extended periods of sabotaging myself. Ask yourself, why do i do this. Do you not think you deserve to feel light, strong and fit? Is the few minutes (even a binge was never more than an hour or two but usually 10-15 minutes) so, is the few minutes of horribly unhealthy choices worth the damage you are causing yourself internally? The extra pressure on your knees, back and sometimes neck? Having to pull yourself up a single flight of stairs with your heart jackhammering? Now picture yourself moving easily like a child. Running up the staircase without thinking of it. Looking at your entire reflection in the mirror and not just your hair, or eyes or mouth? You deserve to be well, healthy and happy. It’s a gift that will reward you and the people who love you. Best wishes. Log your food. Log it before you eat it to see what the macros look like. You CAN do this. We all can. But its not easy or obesity would not exist.