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I cant believe the scale. Not that I havent worked really hard but still I feel like its wrong and a huge cosmic joke and tomorrow or next week when I weigh in it will be like 201. Lol.
I have been eating well. I exercise at least 60m a day 6 days a week at the gym. Tuesday it was 2 hours, spin class then body pump. Thats probably where the loss came from.
I had a very stressful weekend. You know how certain kind of family members cane be. They get intimidated or jealous and I get afraid I will turn out like them overweight miserable and lazy. It was very hard having that around me. I struggled so much. I was seriously afraid of catching their eating issues and laziness. I saw in them what I dont want to become again. Sure it may seem like a life where you eat or drink whatever you want but its a life of bondage. That person is in severe bondage with food. Im not saying that to sound superior or be mean. I am saying it because it was me. I am glad I see it. I dont want to repeat it.
So I have been taking a lot of classes at the gym lately. I havent done the elliptical or treadmill or free weights for maybe 2 weeks. I dont mind I feel like I still get a good workout. Last night I felt weird. I cant really explain it maybe..exhaustion. Mental exhaustion plus not taking a break for a few days and so I did my ab workout then I did 45m of body pump. I couldnt do the full hr. Because of the other workout I had done an hour yesterday so felt ok to leave. I came home and ate a bowl of cereal and a homemade pb cup. Now I hardly ever do this. I dont know what was going on. I then fell fast asleep and slept in til 830 this morning. I dont condone what I did or make excuses but I didnt feel too guilty this morning. I know that since I did that I will not do that again for a while. I never plan to do it. I know I had the calories left over from the 2 workouts to justify it but not at 9pm.
Well all in all I am feeling good. I took some pics of me in a swimsuit today and didnt vomit. Good sign huh.
Be blessed
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183.0 lb
Lost so far: 32.0 lb.
Still to go: 15.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 4.7 lb a week
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