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Good afternoon warriors! Since my last entry I have had the roughest of waves crashing over me pertaining to my surroundings. I was caught up in emotional anguish over some people I held close to me and now seeing their true nature recently. It consumed me so much that my entire days were spent in thoughts revolving around the realistic validity of these bonds. I am now accepting these are changes that needed to take place, the passing of the old surroundings which were only aiding in my old negative habits. I can no longer spend as much time in the bars, drinking and having alcohol induced conversations with people who say they love their children, want a better life and yet they are always in the bar. It's been 8 weeks since I had a drink and since I burned one up. I was never an avid drinker but when I did drink, most of the time I was over doing it. Chugging....chugging away and waking up regretting it all. Wondering OMG what did I do? Did I do anything embarrassing??!! When I hit that wall I told myself I just could not do this anymore. I realized that I was filling my voids with food, beer and the every now and again joint. I know I can not change others with all that I am becoming aware of through sobriety, no matter how much I love them. But at the same time I can no longer be interactive in those negative environments. I do wish them the best and will always be here for them if they need help rising above the addictions. I'm not saying that I am perfect because I am not, I'm just evolving and learning so very much now. I am embracing it all, ready for the next challenge.
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295.6 lb
Lost so far: 64.4 lb.
Still to go: 135.6 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 5.6 lb a week
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