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A few days ago or sometime last week I have started really looking at how my weight is and the things I eat. I went through drive thru McDonald's yet again and after getting my food I started eating. I then thought to myself OMG I am just like those people you see that have eating disorders. They get their food and shove it into their mouths. You know the really fat people they video and they talk about their weight and how they don't know how they got that way.
Well I felt just like that.....I could see myself doing that on tv. I never really realized how much I am like that. Day after day I go to the fast food resturants to get food. I tell myself this is it...no more but then I go right back the next day. I try and change it up and get different stuff but it's still the same. WHY??????? Why do I do this? I hate myself for eating this way. I have become very lazy in everything I do. Whether it's from working to making supper! My life is really taken a downward turn when it comes to being healthy. I tell myself today is different. BUT it really isn't the same old shit just different day.
Well I am putting this on my journal today. I need to change I need help and by going on this more faithfully I am hoping that it will help me.
It's a new day.......
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240.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 60.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 0.2 lb a week
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