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OMG!!!! "I feel so fine!!!" ... LOL (That's the name of the trance style song that's booming in my headphones right now... and I can not stop from hopping up and down on my bed :) OHHHHHHHHH...... I feel so good!!!!! in less than 2 weeks I dropped 15 lbs just from watching my cals (recording EVERYTHING here) and exercising!!!! OHHHHHH!!!!! Fat, old (ok, still young at heart) woman (286 lbs and almost 37 years old!) listening to trance music and hopping on her bed like a kid! LOL I think I'm ready to go techno/house style dancing with the super cute gay guys at a nearby gay club (LOL they are so sweet... so "fat girl friendly" LOL)... now that's an intense cardio workout!!! (techno dance)... or maybe I'll go to a latino club and dans a steamy "bachata".. LOL .. or I'll wait for that until I'll be below 200 lbs so I can dance the night away at NY spanish club... LOL. OMG! Now I really feel guilty... what goes thru my mind!!! On a Sunday morning when most people are in church!!! Please forgive me God... and pleas bring me my "soulmate", a compatible man, the one You created for me!!! Yeah... that's the truth... 'cause aren't we, fat women, known for settling for less, an abuser, just so we are not alone???... like one of my peers, super beautiful, skinny now, intelligent (2 masters) woman, married with a not so good looking, uneducated (did not even finish high school!!!) man, just because, like all of we... she needed "love"!!! Yeah... she was fat when she met him, and she was fat when she married him, then she found something that works for her, and she lost all her weight .... and she was soooo beautiful... and... he... recognizing his inferiority, got depressed... but so depressed that she had to care for him... (maybe he's not that bad after all, but hey.. she could have done so much better!!!).. and now he's OK, and she's still beautiful and devoted to him 'cause he "loves her anyway"... LOL... yeah... I've been there... so far I've had only "unequals" ... but NO MORE!!!! I got to get me a compatible man!!! LOL Thanks God I did not get marry to one of the "nicest" unequals! LOL OK, enough of that... "some day my prince will come!!!" lol.. OK, OK, I am not shallow!!! I just need someone I can converse with.. someone with similar aspirations, outlook on life, background, etc... I KNOW he exists and I WILL meet him! :) Good day now, let's go to the gym!!! :)
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