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I decided to weigh because I've been avoiding it so long. I was surprised. For all the bad I've been doing, I'm only up 1 pound. Last time I weighed I had been sick and hadn't eaten very much so 1 pound up from that isn't so bad. I still don't feel like I did last summer when I was doing great with diet and exercise. It's got to be the workouts, I was toning up a lot then. I've got to get back on that! I could see some pretty good changes and was heavier than I am now but I feel like I looked better than I do now.
I've also decided that I am too scared to walk on the trail alone. I've got to find somewhere to go but I'm just too scared to go by myself. It's raining now anyway. I may get on the elliptical today. I've still got that all or nothing attitude, I can't shake it. I'm all in though. For a while, I wasn't giving myself ANY rest with exercise. I know that is not good but if I lay off for a day or 2, I have a really hard time getting back to it.
I think I'm going to put sticky notes and pictures on my bathroom mirror. I NEED daily motivation. I saw a really cute dress while I was shopping one day and thought about buying it in a smaller size to motivate me to be able to get into it. I don't know if that's too ambitious or if its a good idea. It would look really good with my cowgirl boots though :) I want to feel confident again. I want to be able to wear something cute like that and not wonder what people are thinking, not even care. When you're confident in yourself you have no reason to worry about what people think.
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196.4 lb
Lost so far: 13.6 lb.
Still to go: 46.4 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 0.3 lb a week
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