strawberry1972's Journal, 09 October 2008

Well, I appreciate your positive comments. I will take them int consideration. However, you both do not have to read my journal as it is your CHOICE to read it and it is a daily log of my life and feelings. I was always taught to deal with how you feel and not push your feelings aside otherwise you can suffer long-term depression. Also, seeing as this pretty much JUST HAPPENED and I am usually a VERY POSITIVE PERSON ANYWAY...I would appreciate that you could respect my space and how I deal with my losses in life. I haven't lost almost 100 pounds by being a negative person. It's just that the circumstances in my life lately have been very challenging and I can write whatever I please in my journal. If you don't like it-don't read it. Everyone grieves in their own way in their own time....no one person should ever feel that they have the authority or power to tell another person how to "deal" with a loss of this sort..... Good day! 

I am certainly not upset by your comments rather, I was pretty put off by what Cobrafan said when she wrote, "you are wearing me out". WTH!!?? Who writes that? Who tells that to a person who they don't really know? Yes, I am a journalist but even journalists have bad days too....if cobrafan would look at my journal entries that I have made since February of this year, I have been basically writing about my life here and have found wonderful, supportive, people here on Fatsecret who choose more sensitive words to say rather than that! I would never tell someone that they are "wearing me out"-especially when you barely know them! It is also ironic that if cobrafan could take the time out to really get to know me, they would discover that everyone who knows me knows that I am 100% positive all of the time. I have persevered through some pretty tough moments in my life and losing my mom was just the tip of the iceberg! No one has that right to judge me and how I am to feel. How rude and insensitive! And dontwant2befat, I appreciate your circumstance too. I lost my boyfriend (although not a husband we were very much in love) at age 18 years old to a drunk driver. I was in the car with him when the 52 year old hit us. It was devastating. I empathize with you. So yeah, I am no stranger to loss, but at least I FACE my loss head on, deal with it, write about it, and move on. The one thing I never stood for though..with all the loss in my life....is people telling me to basically "snap out of it"!!! What!? If you don't like it-don't read it or don't be my friend because at least I am being honest and true to myself by recognizing my pain and sorrow and dealing with it. To me, that's the BEST way to heal because you are DEALING with it and not pushing it to the back of your mind and ignoring your pain. Like I said, please don't bother reading my journal entries if you can't "take it anymore" because I will write whatever I darn well like-it's MY LIFE, and my good friends who know me understand that part. That's all that matters to me because those people have been there to support me in every which way as I have supported them through the tough times in their life. Cobrafan, I deleted your insensitive comments and please, in the future, if you have nothing nice to say to me, don't say it at all.