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It's very hard to lose weight when you like what you see in the mirror and others like it too. I had this conversation with a friend of mine recently. We're both Big Beautiful Women. We have pretty faces and shapely bodies. We get enough male attention to keep us entertained and hardly ever run into fat-prejudice because we dress well and look good, so we forget that we're obese.
I'm not being a snob. This is honest. I'm a pretty girl and that's working against me. It isn't until my boyfriend makes a hurtful comment, I need to board an airplane and my seat belt hardly buckles, or I'm afraid to go on a ride at an amusement park because I may not fit in the seat that the problem rears its ugly head.
I carry most of my weight in my lower body - a pear shape. I wear a size 18 on my upper body and must wear a size 24 on my lower body. It sounds completely disproportionate and, trust me, it's hell when I'm shopping, but I carry it well. I don't look like Jennifer Aniston when I'm naked, but with clothes on I look just as good or better.
How do I motivate myself then?
Well, I'm not motivated. I eat take-out at least once a day and over-indulge on just about anything that tastes good. It's a gluttonous form of suicide. When I'm around food I exhibit no self-control.
Ughh! Self-Control - that's more than a food issue I suppose. Someday I'll learn. I can only pray that I do.
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270.0 lb
Lost so far: 2.0 lb.
Still to go: 120.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 2.0 lb a week
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