morela12's Journal, 08 May 2012

So today i continue to still be discouraged. Am i discouraged enough to go off plan and start eating like crazy, not at all. I'm just frustrated that i am staying at 202.2 for the past 4 days. It hasn't budged.

Do i know why this is? Absolutely. For example, i went on a 45 minute bike ride last night. It was great. The evening was beautiful. I ate a huge salad before i went out and then i came back, relaxed, watched tv....and around 9:40 i decided i wanted to eat some refried beans, hummus, and corn to be followed with fresh almond butter (just ground almonds).

So what did i learn? I learned that i need to not eat late at night. I learned that though i stick to "whole foods", it is still not part of my new lifestyle to overindulge. I learned that even if i go on a bike ride, it doesn't give me permission to eat late at night or eat in large quantities.

Anyway, i don't know why i'm discouraged when i continue to eat healthily, even if i eat more than i should or later than i want to. It is still a major lifestyle change. I guess the main thing that frustrates me is that i would eat TONS of food at super late hours of the night and i wouldn't really gain each morning. I guess if i really think about it, i would gain, because i crept up to 231 at one point. So even though i didn't see it each day, i guess i was steadily gaining each day. So that helps, i guess. It's just frustrating that i'm eating SOOOO much less than i used to and you'd think the pounds would just be falling off, but they aren't.

Ugh!

Anyway, i just wanted to rant for awhile. Get this off my chest. Move on. Go on another, and another, and another bike ride and stop eating late at night. I need to realize that there will be times when i eat more than i would like to, but that doesn't mean i'm going to balloon back up to 231. It just means that it will come off slower.

I'm just scared...it's a whole new world and i just want to get to Onderland and have a safety net that doesn't push me over 200 at every chance that i eat a bit more than i should.

Alright...i'm done. You can't control the numbers on the scale, you can only control if you stay on plan. I WILL stay on plan, dangit! :)

Diet Calendar Entries for 08 May 2012:
864 kcal Fat: 49.05g | Prot: 27.49g | Carb: 80.65g.   Breakfast: odwalla superfood. Lunch: trader joes hummus, cauliflower. Dinner: Romaine, Meatless Ground, Yumm Sauce. Snacks/Other: Soy Milk Creamer. more...
2427 kcal Activities & Exercise: Bicycling (leisurely) - <10/mph - 45 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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Good for you to stick to the PLAN. It takes more courage to stay on course. Good luck with your journey... 
08 May 12 by member: manonrob
Thank you very much!!! It's so nice to know someone is paying attention and helping me hold myself accountable. I guess it can't always be smooth sailing, or else everyone would be doing it. :) 
08 May 12 by member: morela12

     
 

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