I can sympathize with your feelings! It is a struggle. I lost my Mom in Nov. 2011 so there has been many changes in my life. So far, I have only lost about three to four lbs. and I need to get serious. I have been a member of FS since August of 2011. I can use all kinds of excuses but it boils down to thinking I am worth living a healthy life, getting out there and exercise and feel good about myself. But with that, I don't want to beat myself up! We are all worth it because we have joined this website already and that is something. Let's motivate each other! (You have already lost more weight than me!