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Well, I've been here before.
Day 4 on my diet, and last night I couldn't sleep. I was somewhat hungry. So, I ate half a grapefruit.
Today was bleak, feeling sluggish and only wanting to sleep.
Of course, this sets me on a course where I feel blah, and don't like the feeling and I know a quick and effective way of making this bad feeling disappear! Yay me!
A sure cure would be a glass of wine... or two, or three. Or a big costco ice cream! But then that sabotages my weight loss efforts.
Well, this time, I realised that yes, I've been here before, this is something that in the past I've been through when dieting. A feeling of being deprived and depressed.
And now I know that my brain is not having the dopamine it's used to provided by the pleasure of eating as much of the tastety stuff I'm used to.
I actually feel somewhat depressed.
It's withdrawal!!! And it will pass! Uh, and I thought only people intoxicated could suffer withdrawal. Well, food certainly is insidous. It will cause withdrawal.
And the fact that I can identify what's going on (at least, what I think is going on) puts me in the position of knowing that it's something that will pass. A necessary evil to go through to get to a state where I will have well being after.
I read recently that fat cells are a repository of toxins, and when you lose fat cells, the toxins are released into your blood stream. that is why many may not feel well. Surprised to learn it, but I guess it's possible.
for sure, for sure, if you're body is use to something for many years, it will fight to keep the habit by all the mechanisms at it's disposal. Physical, emotional - you'll get the whispers in your ear to tempt you and the rationalisation of why you should go back to doing what you've been doing. This one time. We'll start again tomorrow...
I guess it's our circuitry that's been transformed by years of habit.
This weight loss journey is becoming a journey of self discovery and knowledge.
who knew?
:)
Diet Calendar Entry for 19 July 2017:
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1211 kcal
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Fat: 39.12g | Prot: 59.89g | Carb: 162.01g.
Breakfast: Rogers Wheat Germ, Egg, Dried Currants, Bob's Red Mill Chia Seed, 2% Fat Milk, President's Choice Bulgur & Quinoa Blend. Lunch: Sweet Cherries, Hellmann's Light Olive Oil Mayonnaise, Red Cabbage, Clover Leaf Seafood Spicy Thai Tuna, Sweet Potato, Boiled Potato. Dinner: Brunswick Sardines in Spring Water, Boiled Potato, Sweet Potato, Red Cabbage, President's Choice Raw Pumpkin Seeds, President's Choice Frozen Cranberries. Snacks/Other: 2% Fat Milk, Sugar, Coffee. more...
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