Food consumes you because you are human. We are designed for it. In fact, we have become so good at procuring it that we have surpassed are own nutritional needs. You aren't weak, or bad, your brain's just on survival autopilot. Get as many calories as possible with as little work as possible before there aren't any left. So what to do? That is the tough part. You need to trick your brain out of autopilot and everyone has a different suggestion for how to do that. I can't tell you what will work for you because we are different. I feel good at about 60 g carbs a day but I don't know whether or not that will make you feel alright or not. I know that NONE of those carbs can be wheat or I will find myself spiraling down a pizza pasta well of despair. I know that I must eat some protein every time I put something in my mouth or I will be feeling peckish in a fiendishly short amount of time. I also know that when cravings are knocking on my door vigorously, a 24 hour fast resets my trying to autopilot brain. I am still figuring things out and will probably always be doing so. I felt as if you were beating yourself up in your post for something you shouldn't be. You will figure it out. You are already ahead of the game being on this website. Calories (number AND quality) rule the roost!