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Starting my weight loss journey.
I really want this to work. My goal is to eat healthier and to exercise (well...'when I have time').
I actually started my weightloss around 256 at my providers office and I really don't want to hit 260. But its funny because I always said "I won't let myself hit 200 or 230 or 250." I actually remember those thoughts running through my head. Anyway, back to my story.
I weighed 256 back in August (I think, sometime in the last half of 2016) and my provider and I are playing around with my medications (for depression) to see what works. His biggest concern is that some medications make you gain weight and I don't need that!
(Its really sad because I didn't realize some antidepressants cause weight gain. So I went 7 years taking anti-depressants that cause me to gain weight. I just thought it was my body deciding it didn't like me. I would eat the same stuff my family did and my sisters were fine! Ok, maybe I ate some not great stuff, but not THAT much. Long story short, I’ve gained around 100 lbs since my depression journey).
We ended up changing my medications that caused weight gain (and that stopped working) to medications that would at least stabilize my weight and potentially help me lose weight.
Anyway. Back in November when I went again I went to his new office and I gained 10 lbs! I was freaking out! So I went and bought a new battery for my scale AND went to weight at his old office. I still weighed the same on those scales. But, that experience freaked me out.
My mom started her weight loss journey about 4ish months ago, and she has lost 55 lbs! Way to go Mom!
I went home to college and Mom is eating healthier and she eats veggies every day and that inspired me to eat healthier when I came back to school.
So I got veggies and salad stuff and I was doing really good with that and the first week I lost 1 lbs, the next week I lost about .5 lbs. I am okay with that because I am going for a slow weight loss so I don’t get tired of it and quit. (I’ve done weight watchers, high protein diets and keto diets, it starts out great and I loose 30ish lbs but I gain it all back. Honestly, I do think it is the meds, most times.)
The next week I got really nauseated and I couldn’t eat that well because when I ate I had intense stomach pain and I have a chronic cough so when I coughed I would have to run to the bathroom until the nausea went away, so I stopped eating as much. The next week the nausea continued and I could eat that much either.
Honestly, I think it is stress and anxiety. I am a nursing student and the program is a mess right now and the nursing department and inconsistency in the program is more stressful than the learning. It’s really bad. I’m half way through the program and before I never had these problems (the new department head is crap, and it’s a new program AND they are expecting perfect results when they can’t even teach it right, sorry about my ranting). So, I am beyond positive that it is anxiety and stress.
Anyway, now it is the second week of being nauseated and I have lost 7 lbs in the last two weeks. Its not healthy weightloss but I’ll take it. (I have talked to my provider and its fine because I am so overweight, plus, you learn a lot in nursing school).
So yeah, my diet over the last two days consists of Sprite 0 and marshmallows. I am trying to get food in, but it hasn’t been working.
Long post but I need to document this!
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