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While it looks like I have only gained 4lbs since I laast wieghed in.I have gained 20 pounds since October. Because I got so busy with moving in september I evidentally had lost 15 lbs. I know I have been eating for very emotinal reasons. In August my already impossible relationship, became even more difficult. And I'm losing hope. And when I do hope then next moment I beat myself up for being so constantly stupid for hoping at all. I know part of the reason I started this was for that relationship, for when he finally is with me we can start a family and I can be in the best shape that I can manage for that moment. But more of it needs to be just for me. Otherwise i am going to give up during those moments of losing hope, or beating myself up for having hope.. I am repeating myself. Today I tried to go back to the plan i had been on. I did ok. I will add things up, I know today I am starting but really I am just trying to get back into the swing of things, before I lose all control, because I know it is getting close to that. Anyways. Here goes.
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339.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 40.0 lb.
Diet followed N/A.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 08 December 2009:
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2257 kcal
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Fat: 68.58g | Prot: 37.69g | Carb: 362.83g.
Breakfast: bananna bread muffin. Lunch: motts apple sauce cinnamon, lean cuisine chicken rice. Dinner: black berry smuckers, country crock margarine, wheat bread, pops cereal. Snacks/Other: dove chocolate. more...
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gaining 1.9 lb a week
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