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Someone dropped my scale and I think they broke it and i don't know if it's accurate but it feels accurate right now. I went home during my school's long weekend and my parents made me eat meat and i still overate as usual because i have no self control
school is stressing me out even though i dont even have anything to stress over really. i dont even have the worst of it but im stressed out because im weak. i feel like im ready to die and i feel like if i laid down in my cemetery i would just stay there and never get up and be happy. god i don't want to go home for spring break i hate being home. i love being at boarding school i just hate the stress part. if i could just add like 6 extra hours to every day i'd be so much happier because i would have time to do all my homework the way i want it to be done and i would also have time to relax and draw and write. except i hate that now i'm at 120 pounds can you believe that i've gained 10 pounds since the beginning of the school year. i used to be 50 kilograms exactly and now i have 10 pounds worth of fat on me. and 10 pounds doesn't sound like much but can you imagine if you removed all my new fat it would total up to 10 pounds. imagine all the fat you take off beef or something when you cook it and then imagine 10 pounds of that. i can't believe i've gained 10 pounds and i still can't stop myself what is wrong with me.
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120.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 15.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 1.1 lb a week
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I'm not sure how tall you are or how old you are but if your 16 or older 105 pounds seems a little on the light side for a guy.
11 Feb 16 by member: Addie Aline
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How tall are you and how old are you? For young men over 5 feet tall, 120 pounds usually puts you in the "underweight to normal" category already. If you exercise and gain muscle, that's going to show up as pounds, but it's good weight. Lean weight. Having multiple measures besides the scale can help you get a full picture of what your body is doing: the tape measure, how your clothes fit, how toned your muscles are, and what your doctor tells you.
11 Feb 16 by member: karenbledsoe
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I'm happy to hear you love your boarding school! I'm sorry to hear that you feel so stressed out and weak. Is there a school counselor you could talk with to help you figure out some practical ways to manage your school stress and feel more in control of things? It's hard being your age, with all of the pressures and demands. It's hard to see that it gets better, but you're going to love college once you get there! Everything isn't always due tomorrow, you get to do lots of activities, and you find time to take naps. I really want you to take good care of yourself now, so you can get to the good times in college. Hopefully, when you're home, you'll still be able to check in here and let us know how you're doing. Do you think you'll be able to find some time to draw, write, and rest over break?
11 Feb 16 by member: kpwcalories
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