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Well.
Well, well well.
Taking a lot of guts to put that new weight on here for anyone to see. Took a lot just to get on the scale this morning and confirm it. This weight thing is getting harder.
Just got back from an AMAZING month long trip in New Zealand and Australia (and a day layover in Tokyo). Incredible. However, despite the hikes and walks etc, I ate all the junk food with no worries to the future (they have these 'twisties" - their Cheetoes I guess. Holy Crap, those were addictive). Looks like the junk food took the lead over the walks and I'm about to hit 200 lbs again.
ARGH!!
I've made a few other changes as well and I'm hoping they will lead me to better food/exercise choices. I quit my full time job and with my lovely partner's help will be pursuing my dream of acting full time. This means I have more control over my schedule, which I hope means more time at the gym or walking around. A career in acting forces me to consider my body as part of what I have to offer on stage and screen - it's part of my resume really. The more comfortable and healthy that body is, the better chance I have of being cast, and the better job I'll be able to make of it too!
Taking away the stress of the fulltime job will be great (we all know what a downer bad stress is) - but I've added on the stress of "oh my god how am I going to pay my bills" which turns out to be just as bad (she says after looking at her upcoming bills)
So I'm gonna learn to eat right on a budget (despite what people say, dieting on a budget is not as difficult as it might seem: eating less = less $$ ^_^)
I have a few resolutions for this year (I know resolutions are, Like, So out this year, but I like to make them regardless):
*Keep honest track of my eating on here (tracking is turning out to be the number 1 way to lose weight and keep it off)
*Keep Active in order to boost metabolism (not making this too specific as my schedule may prevent me from something like "go to the gym 3 times a week" and I don't want to set myself up to fail)
*STRETCH (major back problems in the last year - I want to really work this out)
Those are the basics.
I'm going to try a few things on keeping on my diet. Turns out TOO much discipline inevitably leads to the "extinction event"/ snowball failure. I need to figure out how to not feel as if I'm depriving myself, because eventually I will give in and overindulge myself.
So: either I make the decision to give up something (like bread) for life - so it's not deprivation, it's more like.. an allergy or a bad addiction to treat. It's a lifestyle change.
OR
I allow myself the indulgence but on a much smaller scale. Think this is going to be the way. I don't WANT to give up bread. And like any other addiction, it ain't gonna happen until I accept the decision in my brain and heart. And that is not now, let me tell you. So, instead - where I'd have two pieces of bread, I have one. Where I'd have one, maybe only half. And keep bread down to a minimum - maybe only once a day. That sort of thing
I'm also going to try making a crockpot of something each week that I can divy up and feed myself throughout the week. I can usually handle the same thing to eat for up to a week - and then I'll change it. But this way I don't have to think about it. And only for one meal (probably lunches). I just grab the container, heat and go. No choices means no bad choices :D
This week it's gonna be Split Pea Soup (which is major comfort food for me).
Alright. Wish me luck once again. It's gonna be a bumpy, lumpy ride.
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