SarahLeanne's Journal, 05 April 2024

Experienced a strange phenomenon the other day, at least strange to me: looking forward to my next workout with an intense feeling of excitement. I can't remember the last time I felt that way. Usually, when I do plan exercise, it feels like a chore and not a privilege, but lately my perspective on it has been shifting (at least some of the time).

I'm making great strides in my physical therapy program (rehabbing an old ankle injury that has caused me a lot of pain and fear of reinjury over the years), and am starting to do jumping exercises that once felt impossible – and impossibly terrifying. My trainer even mentioned that, at some point, I should feel comfortable running again. That's something I've completely removed from my playbook for years because it just felt so damn scary. It still does, to be honest, but I trust that we can get me there.

It's nice to make progress and have someone tell me that I can do these things again...that with the right training and care, my body can handle it. I feel like I have so many options now that I didn't have before. There's so much I can do. It feels really freeing, and while I wish I had done all this sooner, I'm grateful for the opportunity to heal now and keep heading down this new path.