Addie Aline's Journal, 26 October 2015

You got it, buddy. 

Only your son can help himself, Addie. I have the same problem with my son. He still doesn't have his drivers license from the last time he got a DUI. He hasn't driven in over 10 years and he is talking about getting his license back. I dread it when he does. It would be a matter of time before he landed back in jail for another DUI I am sure. You have my prayers and my support always. Hugs. 

Thanks Mom, I know I can't fix it I gave up a year of my life basically. He was in rehab most of 2014 in TN and I flew from AZ every time he was allowed visits spent a lot of money and it only lasted a few months and he started again just a little now and then but now it's all the time, when he looses his job and ask for money I'm saying no. I've already told him that. I won't help him kill himself or someone else. It breaks my heart. 

I have sent you a personal message with information on how I quit drinking. Hope it helps. My thoughts and prayers are with you both. 

Thanks Sammy, I haven't received it yet but I will read it and pass the information on to John. I'm not sure it will help him because right now he doesn't seem to want to quit. I think the Lord will have to intervieen and sometimes he can slap our hands pretty hard. I know I've done all I can but its still really upsetting me and causing my BP to spike so I have to figure out how to accept it. 

oh thats a shame you didnt get the message. I will post the info here. Its called "the Sinclair Method" and its actually works for people who dont wish to quit drinking. You take a pill called Naltrexone an hour before drinking. It temporarily blocks the pleasure/reward centers in the brain and eventually your brain "unlearns" the addiction to alcohol thus giving the person back their control over their drinking. Some people use it to become normal again others become tea total like I did. As a side effect I also quit smoking. I dont usually recommend pills, I am very wary of them. This worked though for me and I was an alcoholic for 10 years. Naltrexone is non addictive, you dont have to take it everyday, only before alcohol and there are no withdrawal issues. The only effort your son has to make is to get a supportive doctor, get his liver checked and simply take a pill EVERY time before he drank. Over time he should notice he is drinking less and less until eventually he has control back. A pill can help with the physical addiction but not the reason for the addiction so I hope he too finds the Lord as this helped me to heal spiritually. You are a wonderful mother, mine walked away from me 3 years ago and will never speak to me again. It made the journey even harder and I could not have done it without seeking Jesus. If possible try to let him know you love and forgive him, however you also have yourself to take care of too. All the best x