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I started - what I had hoped to be my last diet - on August 6, 2008. I decided to use Nutrisystem; for a couple of few reasons...
One: Portion controlled
Two: Delivered to my door
Three: No need for a stove/oven
Four: Seemed like a no-brainer
Well...NS delivered! In more ways than one.
Back in August of 2008 I hated the dreaded thought, but I hauled my big arse onto the scale AND although I knew the number was going to be high, I didn't expect what I saw...322 pounds. 3 - 2 - 2. Three HUNDRED and twenty two pounds! Is this thing broken. Re-weigh...3 - 2 - 2. Who weighs THAT much? When did this happen? When did I lose control???? Now, the mirror had been lying to me all along. Maybe because it was above the sink and I couldn't see below my waist. No wonder my clothes were too tight. No wonder I had to keep buying LARGER sized underwear! Now it ALL makes sense...322. A number that is burnt in my retinas (forever).
NS was working great. I supplemented my foods with fruits, veggies and a little dairy. By my second weigh-in (8/27/06), I was below the ugly 300's - 299.8! Yay!!!! The scale continued to impress me, monthly, with each and every weigh-in...283.4; 271.8; 263; 260.7! Sadly, my losses began to slow - and it was over the holidays - and into the new year - and into Spring and soon to be on the way into being Summer. I continued to consume more non-NS food and noticed my clothes weren't as comfortable. My smaller underwear was cutting off my circulation when I sat and it was getting hard to breath (again). Now where did I put that scale????? According to the NS site, my last weigh-in was 4/1/06 and I was 249.2! A wonderful vision of being below 250. I had a closet full of smaller summer clothes that I was dying to get into. Dying. Now killing myself...poisoning my body with my addiction of food...not really recalling any noteworthy satisfaction of any of the gained pounds but there was a lot of satisfaction with each of the lost pounds. Finding the scale on July 26, 2009 - it read 282.4. It was more like a scream ~ "Hey fool...look at all the time you wasted...what have you done!?" I was back to where I was 9 months ago...just 2 months after starting NS.
The jeans I worked so hard to get into back in October (finally getting to wear them from the end of November until March or so) were so tight - forget tight...they just didn't fit. I developed a new muffin top; while naked and of course none of the smaller summer clothes I bought fit or will fit until the winter! Great....look for me in the bright orange tank and beige capris...I'll be under the Christmas tree ~ assuming I can get back on track!
It's time to start again. The compliments have stopped, the confidence has diminished, the outline of the clavicle is gone, the positive attitude is starting to slip away. And July 26, 2009 was not the first attempt to get back on track...there was a day back in April, two in May, too many to count in June and the one that already passed earlier this month. I have delayed more NS shipments than I have received and decided to get my act together and get healthy. I have the basics. I have the learning blocks. I have the desire. I have the support. I have the gumption. I can do this. I will do this.
July 26, 2009 - 282.4; July 27, 2009 - 276.4; today July 28, 2009 - 273!
I refuse to look back and have any regrets, but I will make this my month of re-invention and re-birth, taking my past mistakes - turning them into knowledge and using it as a tool to succeed in becoming a better me...healthy, happy and way under 200 pounds! I will have a reason and a purpose and hope to make the difference in someone's life AND in my own! I love life and want to enjoy it!
Diet Calendar Entry for 28 July 2009:
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1162 kcal
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Fat: 37.24g | Prot: 72.31g | Carb: 134.58g.
Breakfast: milk, Apple Strudel Scone. Lunch: Thousand Island Salad Dressing, radis, red onion, tomato, lettuce, Chicken A La King. Dinner: nutrisystem sourdough pizza with cheese, green giant asparagus cuts. Snacks/Other: skim milk, nutrisystem almond biscotti, string cheese. more...
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