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Its been a week since I wrote..I need to find more consistancy. So life is really not great right now. As I mentioned home life was not good..well that is code for marital problems. After finding out some things about my husband I confronted him with the truth and let him know that we love him, but this behavior is not okay. I asked him to choose that lifestyle or us. I gave him a few days to tell me. When Tuesday came around he said he wasn't going to change. So I asked him to start looking for a new place to live. He said he would. At this point we have agreed on 2 weeks to find a place. All of this was done calmy. Now he is on the sofa and im in the bedroom. Our schedules are night shift/day shift so we dont see each other much, but I just feel so sick inside knowing it all and knowing he didnt choose us.
So my weight, well Ive lost 3lbs, making lots of progress with controlling nightly intake but still struggling a lot in the breakfast area. I have an appt with a trainer on Monday..its a freebie, but he is really great and will give me a good place to start from. Emotionally I have moments of pain that sneak up on me and I hate them, but I have much support in my life so I am doing better than expected. No one is there with me at night though when its the hardest. No one physical anyway, but I do pray and ask Jesus for his comfort and he gives it. I'm going to get through. The support I am getting here is so wonderful as well. I love laying down to bed and checking my inbox and seeing I have new messages. It makes me feel less alone. Plus it helps so much to give others support and encouagement, too.
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