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I don't normally write more than once a week but I feel the need to today to see if I can work it out and change my ways. Last night we had a staff party and to be honest I was still buzzing from the night before, being home and also the show. I was happy as I felt thw show had worked off my food for thurs so after work I let my hair down at the party and drank and ate whaetever I liked.
It wasn't this that bothered me. I ate till I actually felt sick :( I had told myself that I could have anything as it was a one off but thee was no need for the amount I ate. I could feel my self control going but I didn't know how to stop it.
I know my will power is not very good when iI have been drinking but I need to try and curb it as when I go home and finish this job i'll be drinking more so I need to try and stop this or decide what i'm going to allow myself before I drink.
I know I can do it as I used to drink and not eat all the time. I also need to remember that when i'm with my boyfriend I shouldn'y be eating the same amount. I feel this is maybe why I put more weight on over christmas so I am really glad that i'm here for myself and my image.
So two things to learn this week. I'm too weak when i'm drunk lol and also when i'm with my boyfriend. It's all good as I can fix these but I like the fact I can pinpoint them and sort them out.
Well moany journal entry done ....now for a good week. I'm even tempted to go for a run!! :o lol
:) still chipper and on track
Alison xx
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