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A Familiar Path in a Strange Land, or...
Today kicks off my first two FatSecret challenges: overcoming post-supper binges and establishing a walking routine.
For now, I am not restricting my intake to a calorie or macro goal. I really want to get myself in the right place emotionally/spiritually/mentally with this business before I start tackling intentional weight-loss head on. It makes me feel a bit dorky, taking so long to figure out this connection (so good at losing weight in a healthy way, but can never keep it off because of emotional injuries), but everything in its own time. I've fallen out of touch with myself, and allowed messages from others, advertising, media, etc to override my intuition. When I was more athletic some years ago, it was intuitive and reasonable to take breaks in progression when injuries happened. How could I expect to add weight to my lifts, increase speed, or improve endurance with illness or injury holding me back? My body requires health for a healthy mind. My mind requires health for a healthy body. Maybe I could have figured this out sooner. Maybe it means more now having overcome the barrage of perfection images. Maybe the available path I see ahead of me, that seems to stretch on forever, is really just the beginning. I don't know. I just know I am here now, and today (again) I am taking that first step.
I say again, because I have taken so many first steps down the same path. This time, it feels different. I don't feel like this first step is just me going through the motions. The scenery is different. The air is different. The energy is different. The path is familiar, but strange. I feel I know the twists, hills, descents, and gorges, but this path is overgrown and wild. I have never been here before.
I hope this time, I have found a path to peace, longevity, happiness, and love for myself as well as others.
Today's battle is won. I stepped away from the trail leading me through sorrowful valleys to the edge of an impassible cliff. Today I am taking the wild trail and finding my way.
Diet Calendar Entries for 29 September 2014:
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1329 kcal
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Fat: 64.72g | Prot: 65.73g | Carb: 120.42g.
Breakfast: French or Vienna Bread (Includes Sourdough), Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Unsalted Butter Stick. Lunch: Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Dijon Mustard, John Morrell Cervelat, Gouda Cheese, French or Vienna Bread (Includes Sourdough). Dinner: Leftover Fried Rice. more...
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2793 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 15 minutes, Resting - 17 hours and 34 minutes, Sleeping - 6 hours and 11 minutes. more...
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