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I decided today to create a new Body Bugg program. You see you can't change the goal weight like on here, or the amount you want to lose per week for that matter, unless you create a new program. It outlines new calorie burn goals for the day and new intake goals and a new end date for your final goal.
With this recent deterioration, everything is slowing down, being my weight loss and my muscles. Haha.
Sometimes I feel like a granny! =)
It's ok, I have come to accept this, I remember from the last time I had a deterioration how it progressed, and then how it improved, and I am much quicker this time to accept it and move on. Last time I went through all the typical grief stages. I was angry, I was sad, I was in denial, I did it all. Not in that order mind you. I had so much more to lose then. I had to drop classes at school and only take online courses and I was forced to resign from work, and my dreams of being a nurse practitioner had just slowed down as much as I had.
But that's ok, I know there are more important things in life than all of that, and I will take it in stride this time. I will do what I can do and go from there whether the muscles get better or worse. =)
Anyway, sorry, I got a bit offtrack...
Back to the Body Bugg......
I realized that I am not going to meet my goal set originally because when I set it I was physically able to work out a couple of hours for at least 5-6 days a week, and I was doing fabulous at it... But right now I can't do that, and I don't really want to have a reason to feel like a failure, so I just reset my goals a bit. I set it up for 1 pound a week and the goal date to be in October. I set my calories burned at 2000 because with the muscle weakness I don't burn nearly as much, even when I do exercise (which is mostly arm stuff and slow walking right now). So I figure if I set my sights a little lower then the accomplishments won't be so bitter sweet. =)
I am praying that my swallowing trouble doesn't affect my healthy eating. It's hard to swallow meats, and even this morning I was having trouble swallowing the usual egg whites with laughing cow cheese and tomato on flatbread. Doesn't sound like it would be hard to swallow, and it wasn't until recently...
Anyway, so I will take it a day at a time and I will not give up on losing this weight. I will just have to spend some time doing it slower and rely less on exercise than I had been before.
Want to hear something crazy: with this mito my body holds on to just about everything I eat. I even read an article of a medical study done on mice with mitochondrial disease that said that their bodies went into a sort of starvation mode because it wasn't getting the energy necessary from the mitochondria. So we'll see how to balance the eating. That's ok, I'm in it for the long haul.
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