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I wouldn't fully say that I have fallen off the wagon, but I definitely had quite a few caution to the wind days the past couple of weeks. We took the family to Hershey Park last week and while I thought I would've done horrible, I guess I curbed myself still here and there, but I'm certain the exercise around the park helped tremendously. Monday morning I got back on track counting. I weighed in at 173. Yesterday, somehow I got distracted and forgot to weigh, and today I was thrilled to see I'm still nearly that next taunting mini goal of being under 170, 170.4. We will see if I get lucky tomorrow. I don't think I realized that my bar has finally changed color, which is exciting for me! Woohoo!
Nothing else is really going on. The kids started school today. My oldest is now a middle schooler and I found myself just praying that everyone would just be nice to him. Sometimes that is all I think I ask of people out there, just be nice to me... be nice to my family. I guess I have seen that there are just so many nasty people in the world that I find I worry about it more often than I would like. I also have a 5th and 3rd grader and they seemed pretty stoked about starting the school year! I wish it always could stay this awesome!
As for me, the hubby has told me that I have devoted the last two years to the babies, Miss Ellie Mae and Lil Leo, and that I have to get back to cracking the books open for myself. After reviewing my program, I discovered if I shifted to General Studies, I only have three courses left to earn my Associates degree. Really, this degree is almost useless since everyone looks at a Bachelors as the real achievement BUT finishing this degree will be a stepping stone and it shows something big to my children. If I can with 3-5 kids, working full time... YOU can! No excuses. I also found that the final three courses I need, I am able to complete with two mini sessions and a Fall semester course (if my waitlisted course opens up to me). IF I am able to complete the dreaded Math (I am so horrible in Math no matter how much I try, no matter how many problems I work, the formulas just fly away when the exam is put down in front of me) I will have earned my degree December 15, 2014. It will be a lot of work, and a lot of worry, a lot of stress, but the hubs keeps telling me that I can do this. He reminds me that all I have to get is a "D" to pass... and if I don't, I just take it again and again and again... until it finally sticks in my head or the instructor has mercy of my mathmatically challenged soul. Of course a D would hurt my GPA (I was bound and determined to get Magna/Summa Cum Laude) but my prerequisite Math plummeted my GPA from a 3.8 to a 3.68... This is why I hate Math so badly....
But I am doing it. My two classes are paid for. They begin 9/2 and 10/23 and if my waitlisted comes open, it will also begin 9/2. I just keep trying to tell myself, it will be ok. One close friend made me feel better, she said, "Anyone who knows you, they know that failure is not an option for you!" It isn't, I agree, but Math... that is totally my kryptonite.
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