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I've been very emotionally out of sorts. I always have "steps" I need to go through to get through something relatively big emotionally until I finally come to the point of "Acceptance". Once I get to acceptance, I am smooth sailing. Some things take longer than others depending how big of course. I will feel so much better once I get through this one in particular.
It was a nice weekend, a nice break! The hubby and I had a very nice dinner, and it's not that those are really rare, it was just (for some reason) especially nice. Even with the two babies with us. I dressed in something that to me is quite revealing but he really liked it on me. I don't really wear things that show much skin but he liked it on me and I said the heck with it! :) He always tells me I am beautiful but I like "feeling" beautiful with him and for him. It was an awesome meal, awesome atmosphere even if I felt like a floozie ;) Of course, an impulsive choice to visit the nursing home without giving me time to change to something less "romantic dinner out", in the end I had to laugh about it. I know he believes I am beautiful but I like reminding him of that too.
It's just so wonderful just being around him. Just seeing him smile, just being able to touch him or smell him close to me. He means so much to me. I'm so crazy about him. Really, if we have five kids in this time of our lives and we are doing this well, the rest of our lives has to be amazing!
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