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It is so amazing to me how my mood directly affects what I eat that day. I mean, it is so common sense-- yet, since I am in a foul mood, I find myself dreaming of a chocolate cake. (sinister chuckle here)
For me, I typically just vent and let it all out to handle whatever has offended me or got me upset, but this time, it isn't something I can do. So, I told my hubby how I felt and he nailed the negative thought I have been carrying in my head for the past few days.
My mom in law is here visiting, and her sister in law invited her and only her to her birthday party. She knows she is with me, but I was not included. It hurts to know that I am not liked by some of my husband's family members. And it actually shocked me because this person has been so nice in the past. Part of me wants to call the woman, and ask, "Yo, what gives?" But I think that is part of the reason why I wasn't invited. My mouth is too unpredictable. I don't fit into that little,sweet box that she fits into. I say what's on my mind and not what others want to hear. LOL Really, the whole book of Proverbs in the Bible was written for me-- sound advice for someone that constantly puts her foot in her mouth. But does that make me so unwanted by this extended family? Ugghh... dark, negative thoughts brewing in my rapidly firing mind. I think I'll head to the gym. Take it out on the poor elliptical or bench press... muttering, muttering...
Diet Calendar Entries for 18 April 2009:
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1059 kcal
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Fat: 29.99g | Prot: 75.51g | Carb: 130.57g.
Breakfast: Soy Protein Chocolate Powder, Silk Soy milk. Lunch: Panera chocolate cookie, sara lee whole wheat bread, deli select pastrami. Dinner: peanut sauce, goi cuon. more...
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3230 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Shoveling - 20 minutes, Weight Training (moderate) - 33 minutes, Exercise machine (moderate) - 24 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 43 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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