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I am aware that I have been in a sort of state of denial. Very aware that I was gaining weight but still hoping not to much. Still eating the cookies and candy bars...I just kept telling myself that I will soon resume my diet.. I really hate that it seems to be either Im on a diet or not. after all this time when I know that I must be on an ever ongoing healthy eating sort of state of mind . I wish I could figure out what I could do to perpetuate this state of mind and state of being instead of this on again off again merry go round I have been on all my life. I know that I can do well on diet for months on end but I seem to always am goal oriented as in lose 20 pounds which I can do quite successfully...but always looking forward to the end of it. knowing full well that It must be a life long thing. In the end I guess I rely too much on the enjoyment of food and I don't want to give up my decadent splurges. I need to get more positives enjoyments in my life. I have always been the straight arrow.. feeling positive re-enforcement from myself for how I can deny myself and self control being the constant guard of my being. I don't seem to enjoy much about my life. What am I missing? Starting again tomorrow.
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205.4 lb
Lost so far: 4.4 lb.
Still to go: 55.4 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 0.5 lb a week
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That's the thing about "diets"....the word implies it's something that can be cheated on, left in the dust, etc. Sounds like you need to do some research Carolyn, about what kind of lifestyle you CAN stick to long-term. For me, that lifestyle is a ketogenic diet (low carb-high fat) because I don't feel deprived of things that I LOVE to eat. AND, since I am a sweets-o-holic, I have also found sweet treats I can build into my daily regimen that make me FEEL like I am cheating, even though I am not.
30 Apr 14 by member: kari29
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Welcome back Carolyn. I do agree with Kari, I don't respond well to even the WORD diet. My first thought is deprivation. I've done diets my entire life. Some lasted a few months, some a few hours. My goal now is to simply eat healthier than we had been eating. Losing weight is a part of the end game but it isn't the final goal. The way DH and I eat right now is the way we plan to eat from now on. Might be a few more calories and treats added later but for right now, we're being conservative with those. We still have ice cream and various treats we love. We just have them far less often and in much less quantity. It's actually been fun making healthier versions of things we like and finding new, better ways to prepare things. And the treats feel more like treats because we're not indulging in them every day.
30 Apr 14 by member: Vickie 5966
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I'm with Kari - think it's all about finding the eating plan that works best for your body and your personal taste - I have lost the same 40 pounds several times in my life and once I'm finished this time (half way there!) I'm STAYING at my goal weight - period! I'm doing Ketogenic as well and it's painless! I'm a sweet-o-holic too and some of the Atkins treats are like eating something decadent! And speaking of decadent - heavy cream in my coffee, bacon, butter, mayonnaise....are you kidding me?!?!!! It's taken awhile to get used to this mindset, but the upside is you are NOT hungry, you do NOT feel deprived and my energy levels are ridiculous! I've had low blood sugar issues my entire life and now my energy level stays consistent, I don't "bonk" and get shaky like I used to, and my moods have leveled out as well. Yep, I miss bread and fruit and beer but it's not forever......maintenance will allow for those things.
Good luck Carolyn - I've been exactly where you are and know how it feels. I'm always unhappy inside when I'm out of integrity with myself. For me it's not about being overweight; it's about knowing that I'm not doing what I need to be doing in order to take care of myself.
30 Apr 14 by member: Pppppam
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