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There is a lot of emotional chaos happening in my life at the moment. How do I motivate myself when while I was truely focusing on this last week I wasnt losing? I am almost losing hope that i will meet my goal. I have gained 3 pounds since my last weigh in. I am thinking partly this is because my period is doing this thing where it doesnt want to go away again and maybe that had something to do with trying and not seeing any progress last week, but hell i want that goal. The thought crossed my mind this morning that I do this the unhealthy way. The food deprivation way screw points only eat when I feel like I might pass out. Which isnt good. Sorry. I am being negative. Hopefully going to the gym today helps my mood and doesnt infuriate me more. (Saturday I went to the gym tolerable and left really pissed). Also it helps that I am seeing my therapist on friday, though to replay yesterdays events to her will not be easy.
I am just happy it is a new day and all my parts are intact. I can walk and I have a job. And i should probably get to that.
Diet Calendar Entries for 03 March 2009:
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1629 kcal
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Fat: 44.34g | Prot: 47.29g | Carb: 287.32g.
Breakfast: luna bar oatmeal rasin. Lunch: snackwells, lean cusine lasangue florentine. Snacks/Other: weight watchers sundae, chocolate rice krispie bar, chocolate rice krispie bar, Chocolate Chip Soft Cookies, Chocolate Chip Soft Cookies. more...
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4077 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
elliptical - 45 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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