agirlfromminnesota's Journal, 04 January 2011

It's proving to be a challenging week. I feel so stressed and deeply frustrated. And I am always hungry. :( All these things make dieting hell. The gym hasnt been very enjoyable since the Christmas gain. I need better music.. or something. My feet have been sore too which hasnt been the case for a while. I don't know. I think alot of my frustration is coming from things I have no control over that I want to change. And I have anxiety already which seemed to be getting better with the health changes but they got worse again this week. :\ I just want to relaxe I want to not think about anything and everything I think about. I miss mindless eating. I miss the binging. I miss my escape. I know that doing these things to make me more healthy is good in the long run because I want so much more from life than I have now. Especially a family. And this will make that less worrisome because I have so much to worry about in that endeaver/privlidge/adventure/who knows if I will ever get there. Anyways. Here is to hoping I don't mess up and eat as much tonight as I have been the past few nights.