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I think it is about time I start registering my thought and challenges, for that's what really contributes to my eating un controlled...
I raised my boys to be good people, mature adults and to become a man and to take on responsibilities....I am a proud mom and I would say 95% of the time...they do the right thing.....
If they need help...they ask a question, ask for advice and make a decision for themselves based on the information they have received....
Now comes my "step son" whom is 25 going on 26 in October who QUIT college with 1 yr to go, that decided that delivering pizzas was a great way to make income and seems to always need "daddy" for one thing or another....
I don't sleep at night because the situation in my home is sometimes so stressful....our basement flooded last April and then again in June....we had flood control installed to stop this for ever happening again and are finally in the process of remodeling the entire lower level that was destroyed......I might add in that we only purchased this home 16 months ago.....
So we have me and my NEW husband of 2.5 years....my 2 sons, 32 and 20 and then his oldest who is 25 living now in a 2 bedroom 1 bath house....until remodel is complete....then we will have 2 added bedrooms once again and a full 2nd bath....
So...why is today any different than any other totally over crowded day in my life....oldest step son needs a check for 225$ which he states will give us back the money maybe tonite...maybe tomorrow night...???.....for classes after his DUI....
well, my fist response was...why doesn't he have a checking account yet.....? OK, if no checking account why didn't he just go get a money order since he states he "has the money"
well, hubby FLEW off the handle at me because I am asking why WE need to SPEND our money for his mistakes.....is that too much to ask??? I say NOT....I say let the CHILD be an adult and make mistakes so he can LEARN and mature....
I needed to vent since tears can only do so much......Hubby isn't speaking to me.....sometimes I guess the apples don't fall far from the old 'Mature daddy " tree now do they.....Like father like son...
So now do I have 2 kids and 2 more? UGH....I actually asked myself...why did I marry......he is NOT the man I dated and loved.....Although I still do love him more and more with each passing second....I look at him and melt....but he has changed since we moved...moved where he wanted to live.....
I compromise and give in ...I try to vocalize my thoughts and sometims he will apologize and sometimes like last night he walked outside...screamed at the top of his lungs and called his little BOY.....
I too texted the youngin and asked WHY he needed the monies and why didn't he plan ahead and just buy a money order...his response...I didn't know what a money order was....BUT yet he goes to a currency exchange weekly to cash his lil checks......sorry stupid is what stupid does....UGH makes me mad and sad....
sleep would be good ....without waking and thinking about everything going on....money issues because of this flood....kid issues because he raised his kid to NOT self sufficient....and being married to a man I love with all my heart whom thinks is ok to ignore his wife aaaa...
no wonder I eat for comfort....
Diet Calendar Entry for 29 August 2013:
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312 kcal
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Fat: 0.97g | Prot: 4.15g | Carb: 80.87g.
Breakfast: Grapes (Red or Green, European Type Varieties Such As Thompson Seedless). Lunch: Watermelon. more...
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