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I've been about a year in the fat-o-sphere and though it's been hard work, I've come to love my body (despite it being an asshole on frequent occasions) I'm no longer forgetting to eat, or labeling foods or behaviours good or bad, and I feel like I have a much healthier relationship with both food and myself.
I've lost a bit of weight unintentionally, (due to a medication adjustment, and adding an antidepressant) and I'd like to lose a bit more to ease the stress on my knees (which have taken a turn for the worse) My Fibro still drastically limits my exercise, but I'm more active in small ways, and I think that's helped enough.
I don't plan to be here long or often, as I seem to develop obsessions about calorie counting and precision eating with are ultimately unhealthy (see my last journal entry where I was violently ill but still cared about dieting)and this behavior seems to echo my former eating disorder. However I do plan to use this as an occasional bench marking around my eating/moving behaviors, and my weight fluctuations.
I'm also officially Gluten Intolerant, and adjusting to a GF lifestyle has been exhausting and depressing. I'm still mourning my former favorite foods, many of them gluteny comfort foods, and still willfully glutening myself when I'm down. Staying GF makes a big difference in my pain averages, and rn I'm trying to avoid self harming with comfort food :/
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208.0 lb
Lost so far: 17.0 lb.
Still to go: 48.0 lb.
Diet followed N/A.
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