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I'm feeling very low today. Depressed. My entire body hurts. The doctor says it could be from sleep apnea. It could be fibromyalgia. He doesn't think it's RA. I'm so tired of feeling this way. It hurts to move. It hurts to be touched. My 21 yr old daughter is at work right now, but when she gets off, she and her bf are going to the lake to visit my mother & stepfather/her grandparents. The drive is about 70 miles, and I don't have the energy or even the "want to", to go too. If I did go, I'd have to drive it alone. I'm lonely. I don't like the idea of being locked up inside the apartment all day, by myself. My daughter spends so much time with her bf, and I miss her. She has always been my entire life, ALL her life .. and now I feel like I matter very little to her. She only needs me to feed her and to drive her to work, sometimes. I rarely get hugs & kisses from her anymore; I have to ask for them. That breaks my heart. All of these things makes me want to just open the pantry and the fridge and eat. Eat and sleep.
Diet Calendar Entries for 27 July 2013:
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2671 kcal
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Fat: 102.83g | Prot: 128.27g | Carb: 328.88g.
Breakfast: Sugar, Splenda No Calorie Sweetener, Tea (Brewed), Cantaloupe Melons, Hard-Boiled Egg. Lunch: Tea (Brewed), Sunshine Cheez-It Reduced Fat Crackers, Braeburn Apples, Dole Butter Lettuce, Light Sour Cream, Gedney Dill Pickle Relish, Tuna in Water (Canned). Dinner: Blue Bell Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream, Bananas, Chicken or Turkey, Rice and Vegetables in Cream Sauce, White Sauce or Mushroom Soup-Based Sauce (Including Carrots, Broccoli, and/or Dark-Green Leafy, Mixture). Snacks/Other: Blue Diamond Roasted Salted Almonds. more...
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4530 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sitting - 13 hours and 45 minutes, Driving - 15 minutes, Sleeping - 10 hours. more...
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