Sandy701's Journal, 21 February 2013

Went out walking 3.1 miles again this morning, as it may be the last day for awhile. We've got lots and lots of rain in our weekend forecast, actually beginning tomorrow. At least we're not getting the wintry mix heading for the middle part of the country.

The scale ticked upward yet AGAIN this AM and it put me in a terrible mood. Yes, I know the "we're not a number..." kind of thing, but I was just grumpy and grouchy all morning long. Funny thing....when I finished logging yesterday's foods (only part of that done yesterday), it was very apparent why my weight ticked upward. Once I saw that, I actually felt least there was a REASON for the "gain." I think the worst thing about any WOE is when your weight goes up and you can't pinpoint any reason for it.

Seems like a lot of us are going through issues/pity parties/down days or whatever. THIS TOO, SHALL PASS.

Losing weight doesn't guarantee bright days, no stress, smiley faces, and solutions. Oh, if it only did! No, life goes on....some days good, some days maybe not so much.

I'm writing this entry to remind myself of this, as much as anyone else. I'm struggling.....have been since "the holidays" ended. I "think" I'm doing everything right, as much as I ever have, but the truth of the matter is I'm taking some liberties. I "think" I'm focused, but the truth of the matter is I'm NOT as strictly focused as I was before I hit goal last summer. There are undercurrent thoughts like "Oh, I got this" and "I can always get back there (to goal)" that are sabotaging me!! It's just like when I got close to goal (within 15 pounds or so)....I felt myself settling....felt myself losing a bit of that drive that I needed to get the job done.

I don't know (yet) where/when I can muster up the full measure of that drive to get back into my Maintenance range, but I HAVE begun the process. I have a weekly goal set for myself that's written on a small calendar right by my favorite chair in the living room. I see it every evening and it's a reminder of where I need to be and by when. It's REALISTIC, too....about a pound a week which is the rate at which I lost most of my weight.

I really hate losing weight through the same numbers I traveled through before. And, I hate the pace, too. I thought I was done with all this but apparently, I'm not. This is NO FUN, it's NOT exciting.

All are welcome to my pity party....just BYO black balloons. LOL!

Diet Calendar Entries for 21 February 2013:
1403 kcal Fat: 81.71g | Prot: 125.03g | Carb: 36.71g.   Breakfast: strawberries, Blue Diamond unsweetened vanilla almond milk, Body Fortress Super Advanced Vanilla whey protein, Jay Robb premium stevia powder, Jif crunchy peanut butter. Lunch: Pieces & Stems Mushrooms, Kraft shredded colby jack cheese, Johnsonville Brown Sugar & Honey sausages, chia seeds (bulk), egg. Dinner: pork chop, French's honey mustard, green beans. Snacks/Other: Lowrey's microwave pork rinds, Sargento cheddar mozzarella cheese stick, raspberries. more...
1944 kcal Activities & Exercise: Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 53 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 7 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet Atkins  


LOL Sandy..I have my black balloons with me dear...I finally had to start measuring seems my eye balls are bigger than the Tbs or cup for measuring really is..And I got very slack in what I was eating and really didn't care during the month of January..the longest month for me....Just keep in mind how far you have come..since you started this journeyy...Can You Say AWESOME???..Hope you enjoy your weekend dispite the rainy days ahead..we are to get freezing rain Friday...then only rain...Yahoo...Later...:O) 
21 Feb 13 by member: BHA
I feel you too! It is hard to pick up where you left off, but with a redo button in your midst, even harder. I keep saying...I got myself here & I will get out of this! 
21 Feb 13 by member: jessabridge4444
Well Bren, if you've got the black balloons, then come on in! Thanks for the reminder of the ENTIRE journey....sometimes I can get too focused in on the here and now, forgetting some of my history. As far as eyeballs are concerned....I keep recalibrating the food scale, hoping for more, but, sadly, it's calibrated just fine and that's all I get. (sigh) Hope your rain can stay all liquid, with NO frozen stuff!!! 
21 Feb 13 by member: Sandy701
Jessa, thanks for stopping by. You're right....we found our way up....we can certainly find our way back down. Have a good day! 
21 Feb 13 by member: Sandy701


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