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Went out walking 3.1 miles again this morning, as it may be the last day for awhile. We've got lots and lots of rain in our weekend forecast, actually beginning tomorrow. At least we're not getting the wintry mix heading for the middle part of the country.
The scale ticked upward yet AGAIN this AM and it put me in a terrible mood. Yes, I know the "we're not a number..." kind of thing, but I was just grumpy and grouchy all morning long. Funny thing....when I finished logging yesterday's foods (only part of that done yesterday), it was very apparent why my weight ticked upward. Once I saw that, I actually felt better....at least there was a REASON for the "gain." I think the worst thing about any WOE is when your weight goes up and you can't pinpoint any reason for it.
Seems like a lot of us are going through issues/pity parties/down days or whatever. THIS TOO, SHALL PASS.
Losing weight doesn't guarantee bright days, no stress, smiley faces, and solutions. Oh, if it only did! No, life goes on....some days good, some days maybe not so much.
I'm writing this entry to remind myself of this, as much as anyone else. I'm struggling.....have been since "the holidays" ended. I "think" I'm doing everything right, as much as I ever have, but the truth of the matter is I'm taking some liberties. I "think" I'm focused, but the truth of the matter is I'm NOT as strictly focused as I was before I hit goal last summer. There are undercurrent thoughts like "Oh, I got this" and "I can always get back there (to goal)" that are sabotaging me!! It's just like when I got close to goal (within 15 pounds or so)....I felt myself settling....felt myself losing a bit of that drive that I needed to get the job done.
I don't know (yet) where/when I can muster up the full measure of that drive to get back into my Maintenance range, but I HAVE begun the process. I have a weekly goal set for myself that's written on a small calendar right by my favorite chair in the living room. I see it every evening and it's a reminder of where I need to be and by when. It's REALISTIC, too....about a pound a week which is the rate at which I lost most of my weight.
I really hate losing weight through the same numbers I traveled through before. And, I hate the pace, too. I thought I was done with all this but apparently, I'm not. This is NO FUN, it's NOT exciting.
All are welcome to my pity party....just BYO black balloons. LOL!
Diet Calendar Entries for 21 February 2013:
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1403 kcal
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Fat: 81.71g | Prot: 125.03g | Carb: 36.71g.
Breakfast: Jif crunchy peanut butter, Jay Robb premium stevia powder, Body Fortress Super Advanced Vanilla whey protein, Blue Diamond unsweetened vanilla almond milk, strawberries. Lunch: egg, chia seeds (bulk), Johnsonville Brown Sugar & Honey sausages, Kraft shredded colby jack cheese, Pieces & Stems Mushrooms. Dinner: green beans, French's honey mustard, pork chop. Snacks/Other: raspberries, Sargento cheddar mozzarella cheese stick, Lowrey's microwave pork rinds. more...
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1944 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 53 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 7 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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