So here's the deal. Looking back to around 2003 I was really a great size. I think those jeans are 23/21 (although that could be wrong, I'm going by memory here) I was comfortable in my body except I would rather wear a one piece than two piece bathing suit, but I was 125 lbs and 5'4".
Then in 2006 I was at the end of college, getting married and chemically depressed. Saw a naturapath that got me on somethings and within the six months before my wedding and last semester of college (graduating with two degrees) I gained 60 lbs. I've never been able to lose it.
In the rest of 2006 I did Curves religiously. Diet to the letter, exercise with every single direction. Never missing a day. Even when I went on vacation. Fat fat fat. I think I was 180 something around then, I don't even know. I just know there is a picture of me and *shudder*.
(Now that just sent me on a tangent finding pictures to show my weight up and down... great.)
Well after that... Pregnant with gestational diabetes when at the maximum to 217 then down to something, then pregnant with second baby with gestational diabetes with similar weight. Baby born in the summer of 2011. In the spring, I think it was March 31st there are some pretty good photos of me and I was about 164 lbs (that's when I stopped updating the widget on my blog...). Right now I'm 184 last checked.
Still breastfeeding, no dietary changes, nothing. I don't know what the deal is. Over the last year I've been sick repeatedly and on various antibiotics and now some allergy medications. Severely depressed so I just stopped one of those allergy meds and that seems to have abated some of the depression. Now I've discovered an abscessed tooth that might have been the "root" of all my sinus infections of the last year. In the process of getting that resolved next week (hopefully!).
I've tried hooping and want to do it, but cannot keep the hoop up. I just want to be comfortable in my body again. I'm a stay at home mom with no local connections really so I cannot just take off and run - no do I have ANY desire to run. No finances available so joining a gym or "weight club" is not really appropriate. I'm still breastfeeding about three times in a 24 hour period at 16 months so I cannot do anything drastic in dropping calories, or at least I need to consider the breastfeeding. I just haven't a clue what to do next.
I need to stay away from being depressed and lose lots of weight.
