madaboutmoose's Journal, 13 December 2012

November 7th I got brave and stepped on the scale knowing full well I had gained weight. The number was 231.6.

I immediately began paying attention again but was quickly distracted by Thanksgiving ... which I struggle to keep at ONE feast day due to the leftovers!! LOL!!!

Now just a month and 6 days later I am down 12.6 lbs. It is easy for me not to see that loss because I so want to see myself as back in my range ... like I was able to do for so long. A sort of denial I suppose. I am at 219. That is progress. YAY!!!!

So life clicks along. Daughter's last day of her intensive treatment program will be Monday. Today she is packing gift baskets for the Women's Shelter with her church group. She's looking forward to that. She has court for her second DUI (they continued it so she could do her treatment program)on Tuesday. It should go well since she has maintained her sobriety and has been staying on track. Hope!!!

Hubby saw a bad accident happen last night which upset him. A woman in a small car hit TWO horses!!! She walked away, amazingly. But it was hard to see the horses and he thought surely she was dead. Both horse had to be shot. Sad. Same area of the road where I hit the elk last winter. I hate that stretch of road.

I have a full day today. Surprise!! That's not really news I suppose. I am looking forward to the weekend. Time to see my husband and we are taking my Mom out to dinner for her birthday which was yesterday ... one of our favorite steak places outside of Coeur d' Alene, nothing fancy as for atmosphere but the steaks are OUTSTANDING!!! It will be my feast day.

I've been up an hour and need to get down on the floor and move my body with my Pilates instructor. While I don't think it burns a lot of calories I do know that it makes a difference in my body. Already I can feel that it is easier to cross my legs. I NEVER "want" to do it but just try to make it a part of my daily routine, like brushing my teeth. But first I will finish my first cup of coffee!!!

I am ever so grateful ...

for a supervisor who so kindly had tears in her eyes as I told her DH's cancer news ...

for the kind support from friends as I share my news ... although it is hard for me to talk about I appreciate knowing I do not have to be alone in this journey and that others care about us.

for successfully completing two low calorie days this week without feeling like I wanted to kill something and eat it.

for our batteries holding a charge.

for safe travels on the roads for DH and me.

for a declining weight chart ... inching ever so steadily back to a weight range and health zone that I feel much more comfortable in (I'm actually starting to believe I can do this).

Self care. I'm still struggling with what to "let go" of. I've not let go of anything yet. I am diligently working on being kind to myself. Be good to yourselves ...

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1218 kcal

Fat: 41.13g | Prot: 92.17g | Carb: 123.17g.   Breakfast: Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Low Fat Mayonnaise Dressing, Velveeta Cheese Slices, Egg. Lunch: Chicken Breast Meat (Broilers or Fryers) , Boiled Egg, Pico De Gallo (Mild), Cottage Cheese (Lowfat 2% Milkfat) . Dinner: Chicken Parmigiana, Fetuccini Pasta, Broccoli, & Caramel Apple Crisp. Snacks/Other: Oscar Mayer Turkey, kellogg nutri grain cereal bar, York Peppermint Pattie Coffee Creamer, Mesquite Smoked Turkey. more...

3020 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Driving - 2 hours, Pilates - 30 minutes, Resting - 6 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 7 hours. more...