RroseSelavy's Journal, 20 June 2010

We seem to have similar goals as well as similar food views. I too was at 255 when I hit rock bottom and did something about it. I did not have a weight problem threw childhood, it was the birth of my daughter which caused the initial weight gain and I just let it sky rocket from there. I never even noticed how big I was, till I got on a scale. I lost 107 pounds in 9 months with diet and exercise, but I had an emotional trigger set me on a eating frenzy May of 09 and I did not stop till I gained 60 pounds back. You know how frustrating this can be and you think why did I let my self go again. I started again with the diet and exercise February of this year, I have been able to start fitting into some of my old cloths which is nice. I have just decided this is not going to be a diet for me but a change of life style. I came to the realization I can not eat like the rest of my family and this is a disease for me. I will have to watch what I eat and exercise more often then most people to make sure this does not happen to me again. If you want to buddy up and be support for one another, I would like to have you on my team. Good luck 

I'd love to be your buddy- the more support the better I say!! Looks like you're making awesome progress again, congrats! Gaining weight back is just so incredibly frustrating, with a heaping side of guilt, since you know how hard you had to work in the first place. How hard it is to lose the weight, but easy to gain it back!! I agree, it's like a disease- not being aware of what you're eating for even a few days can spiral into a major eating frenzy. In years past I had the mindset of "I have to lose as much as humanly possible as quickly as possible," and I think that contributed the most to my failure. My friend told me a few months ago that there really is no "time limit" to being healthy- it's for the rest of your life, so why rush? I really took that to heart, and so when I screw up occasionally now it's so much easier to brush it off and start again. I think that ultimately that's the only path to healthiness. Best of luck to both of us, so glad to meet you! :)