krystal138's Journal, 07 February 2008

Well had the funeral today. I went to work this morning packing my gym bag but knowing after my lunch hour that myself and another coworker would be going to another coworkers funral today. I did go work out and I was glad that I did, however I came back to work and had to leave for the funeral. I have to say I have never ever been to a funeral to say goodbye to someone sooo young. 37 yearold mother of two killed in a tragic accident. She was in acomo since august 07 and her time was up. Sooo very sad. It hurt to see her family suffering as they stood there and cried. I only thank god that her suffering has ended. She was the most beautiful, super model type girl I have ever met and she lived her life like it was her last everyday...and it makes me wonder is that a sign right there? Well she is laid to rest and now the family has to grieve and move forward. I said a prayer under my breath as I tried to contain my tears. So very difficult. When I came back to work I consummed myself in work and I found myself very very anxious to pick up my son from his after school program...quite more than normal. I was sooo happy to see him today as if I haven't seen him in a year and yet it had only been 7 hours or so. Well, life must go on and I just need to take care of me and my son and try and live life to the fullest. I guess thats the answer. I came home to find out my very good friend and neighbour was home and I noticed that quite a few cars were in her driveway which was very odd. Her mother, the age of 90 was just recently admitted into the hospital..so I decided to call her to make sure everything was okay and sure enough she passed away at the hospital today. .BOY WHAT A DAY!!!However,through all this I have remained focussed on the reason I am here and taking care of myself and I just remind myself that tomorrow is weigh in day and I know I've been very focussed and dedicated. So tomorrow is another day.