bethinfriend's Journal, 29 January 2017

hello forum ,

It's been a long time since I last updated my weight journal . I been busy with study ~ didn't watch what I put in my

mouth so I gained 8 pounds ....

taking a career shift is really stressful for me , I quit my job and lived on saving ..

coding is hard ..I wanted to go into the software development field but coding is just

really hard for me ..my logical reasoning skill is not as good as I thought it 'd be , but

I'm still trying hard to catch up with my course works and stuff ....nothing comes easy ~

nobody just do nothing and expect to get money ~maybe some people who has enormous family wealth ,

but I think higher paying jobs requires more hard work and efforts, so I didn't have a choice but

just to trust myself that if others can do it , i can do it too . Just like diet, if others can loose weight,

I can do it too . Even if I can't , but I should have a positive mind set, you know like buying lottery,

if you buy lottery , you may have tiny tiny chance of winning (extremely tiny chance) but if you don't

buy it at all , you don't even have that tiny chance of winning. I got nothing to loose, if I fail to make a

career change ? I 'll just go find a job similar to my previous job ~

my weight keeps going up and down ....I just feel sometimes I just let myself go ...I see starch I eat, I see

fat pork I eat, I see pizza I eat ..I don't even think about what I eat, I just keep putting those junk food in my mouth

LOL ......i'm almost done with my class (i have another one coming a few month after ) so once I finish my class I'll

need to really really focus on what I eat .

Another thing is I met this guy that I really liked , I wanted to be with him I think he's like the best guy I've seen for a

really really long time , so I do wanna loose a few extra pounds so I am more confident in front of him.

sorry guys I know every time I post a journal I always goes on and on and on ~ I don't really talk to friends about

my life or how I feel , but I feel more comfortable being myself on the internet ~ :D

have a good day
ttyl

170.0 lb Lost so far: 10.0 lb.    Still to go: 74.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.