JulieBeach's Journal, 08 February 2016

You have it! :) There's some nice people here. For what it's worth my best advice I can offer you: log food as accurately as you can, it will help you see patterns and make good decisions about things like what felt the best/was most filling, etc. - and also, to be patient - because bodies don't always respond the same from day to day! Consider it the first steps in the rest of your life being better! It's not about "dieting" but knowing what your body needs, to do the best job for you that it can. :) 

Thank you so much for your comment. I know I was feeling sorry for myself last night after eating and not even enjoying my fourth buttered bun of the day and came looking here for.. something. I have known for a very long time what my body needs to be healthy and I have seen and felt the difference that giving my body what it needs makes but I get into a rut of feeding it pointless fuel time and time again! I worry for my health but it doesn't stop me! I know that 'something' that I was looking for last night can only be found in me but your comments have 'woken up' and clarified my understanding of why I want and why I need to do this and I feel a little stronger. Your words have helped me think about stepping outside of myself and my emotions and taking care of my body as if I would take care of my car if I want it to continue getting me from A to B not just for me but for my family. You are doing really well I see so keep those changes going and thanks once again. Now I better get out of bed and start this new day haha!  

:-) Hey you're welcome! Means a lot to me if anything I say helps someone a bit. What stood out to me about your comment just now was about how you knew you weren't enjoying what you were eating. It struck a chord and for sure, it's moments like that which really highlight the part of weight loss that isn't just about fuel in/fuel out, but about the mental stuff that we have to sort out to get there. I feel sometimes our bodies reflect the state of our minds. And believe me - I love food, for sure, not junk but the "real" stuff, but there's still a cap on how much of it my short arse actually NEEDS: :) I just didn't look at it, I just didn't see it, you know? Eating wasn't about nourishment and enjoyment and fuel, it was about something darker and waaaaay bigger than food is supposed to be. Sometimes I was sad, (there'd been some rough years in a bad marriage), sometimes I was bored, sometimes I just didn't know better and the worst times, I simply didn't care. If I could go back in time a few years and shake my former self out of that pit she put herself in, I would. All I can tell you is those moments that feel like sacrifices right now are just the process of retraining your mind, and body. Be your own best friend. :) Thanks for the request btw! 

Wow! You really know how to say it and I relate to everything you have said here! Inspired by your last line. Thanks.  

Anytime! All the best. :) 

Hi. The first step is often the hardest. You have taken it. This is a great website and a great community of people with a lot of knowledge and no judgement. Obviously take what works for you and leave the rest. Welcome and best wishes on your health journey. 

Plenty support here, Julie. Anything you need to know, just ask. Someone will have the answer for you. 

Not quite sure how to reply to each comment individually so for now I'd just like to say thank you to all of you who have taken the time to make a comment. Your support really means a lot to me. I hope you are all doing well and getting the support you need too.